Four months had past ever since i started working. But what i have done so far never seems to get appreciated. I sacrifice everything i had and it never seems to be enough to the family. Sometimes, i question myself, why do i work so hard? Beside paying for my school fees, why should i work so hard? Why should i even have to carry a burden which should not be carried by myself? Life totally became meaningless right now. For i have no own will to do anything. There is just too many burden for me to carry and i can't refuse to carry it.

All this while living in total stressness. While the rest just sit at home not worrying bout anything. Why am i the only one working in the family? Nobody is worrying that pretry soon we will nt have a house to stay, nobody is worrying that we do not have money to oay for utilities bills etc. I'm the only one who cares yet i'm the one who will never get appreciated for what i have done. Its like its totally my job when im nt even the oldest in de family.

Sometimes i just wonder, why not i be knock down by a car someday and never wakes up? Then i will not have to carry so much burden with me till i feel like im suffocating. Pretty soon we might nt even have money to eat yet no one is worrying.
Life just kinda sucks right now. And it will only just get worst and never getting better. So sick of this life. So tired of this life. Seriously, this aint what i wanted. Sigh....