Sunday, July 31, 2011
..:: Liar!!!!::..
Why?? Why??
Why must you lie to me?
Its like being caught red handed without knowing and still continuing to lie.
Why must you do this??
Seriously i dun understand!
I'm losing all my trust i had on you.
I have caught you telling lies for more than once le but this time round its the most obvious one.
Arhx... this is so fucked up!!!
Shit day of mine!
Bad Day!!
I hate today so much!
Plus im currently like going to have fever! =(
Shit man, seriously whole loads of shit today!
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9:43 PM
Saturday, July 30, 2011
..:: Slowly Getting Use To It::..
Starting to get used to it.
No longer that sad about it.
After yesterday try out, its still as usual.
No matter how long i waited also no reply. Slowly getting use to this and its a good thing.
No matter how hard life is, life still goes on.
Look at the bright side and life would be mu
ch more easier. =)
No matter whether its good or bad, its still the life we had to walk through.
Oh yeah~!
It's holiday for me!
Though only two weeks but better than nothing eh. =)
Can rest at home, catch my dramas and anime and also at the same time catch up with friends!
Hohoho... Gonna enjoy this two weeks and have the last blast through my degree! =)
Hope can pass all exams smoothly, best is get good grades.
Let me pass with a honors degree at least pls
!!! =)
Went sentosa yesterday night to support my gf for the miss singapore 2011!
Hope that she have fun during the contest and best is able to win the contest!
Saw the poster of song of the sea in the monorail.
Hmm.... thinking of going to watch it!
Like quite nice eh.
$10 dollar, should i go?? *Think Hard*
Haha... okay, shall end here today.
Got national day dinner tonight.
Shall catch some sleep soon. =)
Have a nice weekends everyone!
Love them so much!!! =))
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3:31 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2011
..:: Disappointed, losing pieces and pieces of my trust.::..
While searching for nice background image for my younger brother. I came across this picture and decided to ask him to use this for his work to someone.
When i first saw this photo, i feel so sad.
Its a nice picture but to me it looks sad.
Imagine when all the butterflies fly off from the branches.
All that is left will be just a tree with branches and nothing else.
The tree will be so lonely, so left out.
I hate to see things like that happening, especially when on me.
Things changes and they will never just stay still and not move.
Having to see all the butterflies flying off the tree one by one will be a torture to the tree.
See this picture makes me feel emo. =(
I seriously dun understand.
Dun understand why i there is this differences that i cound not cross over.
No matter how hard i try, the next day or even the next moment or minutes, there will be another blow to blow me off.
Because of the difference, no matter what i do also not right.
This is so sucks.
I dont trust ppl easily.
If i say i trusted u, believe in u means i really do.
But why make me disappointed?
If what being said by u is true, then how to explain what i have saw?
So its trying to say that u could wake up to reply tweets by not to even reply a sms?
Is this what it means?
Or is it that there is no waking up at all as u have nvr ever fell asleep?
Seriously, i couldn't understand this.
But oh well, since u dun even wanna explain anything den i just take it as what i believe in.
Seriously utterly disappointed.
I treated u as a good friend and u treated me like air, like transparent, ignoring my msg.
How great and nice this it?
Nvm, its alright.
I shall heck care everything from now on.
Carry on with all the ridiculous lies.
As if , everything happened miracle-ly.
I shall stop trying and caring so much.
If its meant to be like this den alright let it be.
If u are happy about it den go ahead.
Too tired to care and try already. I give up!
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2:05 PM
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
..:: A good start::..
A bad monday I had. Seriously, a bad one! But it's a good start for me in terms of trying hard to feel nothing. No matter how bad the replies got me to, I just keep trying to make myself feel nothing. Even though it hurts but I hide it well. I hide it so well that you wouldn't realize and anyway you will never care to realize.
That's the reason why you are happy bah? What can I do to make you happy? I can't do anything as I'm nothing. No matter how hard I try. It just wont and never will as you would never cares bout me. How ironic life could be? Having to act like believing in all de lies. Acting like a fool and trying to feel nothing. It can be really tiring!
Shall stop here tonight. Life suddenly seems so hard to live for me! :/
That's the reason why you are happy bah? What can I do to make you happy? I can't do anything as I'm nothing. No matter how hard I try. It just wont and never will as you would never cares bout me. How ironic life could be? Having to act like believing in all de lies. Acting like a fool and trying to feel nothing. It can be really tiring!
Shall stop here tonight. Life suddenly seems so hard to live for me! :/
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12:59 AM
Monday, July 25, 2011
..:: Heart breaks!::..
Ha... I feel that I'm like a fool now!
Believing all de lies when I know the truth.
How hurtful could this be?
Why people always do the opposite of what they promises?
It's so heartbreaking!
Seriously, it hurts like hell!
Grrrr... fk all those lies!
I dun mean to be so vulgar but I couldn't tahan anymore!
Arhx!!!!!!!!
Damn everything!
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3:26 AM
Sunday, July 24, 2011
..:: Nightmares::..
When we hear or see the word 'Nightmares", everyone will know that it surely is not a good thing. I hate nightmares.
Hates to have nightmares that is so realistic as if it was really happening and it ain't a dream.
That feelings sucks big time!
Woke up in cold sweat due to the it this morning.
It's really scary. Scary till i would never want or wish that it will happen.
But in fact some of the real life things happening right now was in the dream.
Does that means that it might really happened in real life?
Aww.... i definitely wouldn't want that to happen! =(
Things changes and they will never stay the same forever as forever do not exist.
I'm trying to get use to the changes as quickly as possible.
The fact that i have seen, hurts but it does not hurt as much as just a short sentence of yours.
Now i just wish that i will get use to it.
Get use to it as fast as possible, as quickly as possible.
Adapting to all these changes and just dun care anymore.
That's it, i'm gonna do that.
The weather has been really bad!
Hates the weather as it keep making me headache. =/
Shall stop here for now.
Have a good day everyone!
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11:36 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2011
..:: I'm nothing::..
Smiles are the best way to hide one's sadness. At least to me i believe in this. When feeling hurt, smiling is the only way to hide it. When feeling lost, smiling is the best way to bring things over.
I have never. realize that smiling can be a very useful tools. But now I know that it can. Feeling kinda bad but I guess it's normal. It's something I should slowly get use to. Learning to accept everything like it's nothing as I'm nothing.
True that it hurts. It hurts badly but its okay! I will overcome it just like I always use to! I will get use to it. i will accept it.
Okay, I shall go to bed now! Good night world!
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11:33 AM
..:: I'm nothing::..
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Smiles are the best way to hide one's sadness. At least to me i believe in this. When feeling hurt, smiling is the only way to hide it. When feeling lost, smiling is the best way to bring things over.
I have never. realize that smiling can be a very useful tools. But now I know that it can. Feeling kinda bad but I guess it's normal. It's something I should slowly get use to. Learning to accept everything like it's nothing as I'm nothing.
True that it hurts. It hurts badly but its okay! I will overcome it just like I always use to! I will get use to it. i will accept it.
Okay, I shall go to bed now! Good night world!
Smiles are the best way to hide one's sadness. At least to me i believe in this. When feeling hurt, smiling is the only way to hide it. When feeling lost, smiling is the best way to bring things over.
I have never. realize that smiling can be a very useful tools. But now I know that it can. Feeling kinda bad but I guess it's normal. It's something I should slowly get use to. Learning to accept everything like it's nothing as I'm nothing.
True that it hurts. It hurts badly but its okay! I will overcome it just like I always use to! I will get use to it. i will accept it.
Okay, I shall go to bed now! Good night world!
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11:31 AM
..:: I'm nothing::..
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Smiles are the best way to hide one's sadness. At least to me i believe in this. When feeling hurt, smiling is the only way to hide it. When feeling lost, smiling is the best way to bring things over.
I have never. realize that smiling can be a very useful tools. But now I know that it can. Feeling kinda bad but I guess it's normal. It's something I should slowly get use to. Learning to accept everything like it's nothing as I'm nothing.
True that it hurts. It hurts badly but its okay! I will overcome it just like I always use to! I will get use to it. i will accept it.
Okay, I shall go to bed now! Good night world!
Smiles are the best way to hide one's sadness. At least to me i believe in this. When feeling hurt, smiling is the only way to hide it. When feeling lost, smiling is the best way to bring things over.
I have never. realize that smiling can be a very useful tools. But now I know that it can. Feeling kinda bad but I guess it's normal. It's something I should slowly get use to. Learning to accept everything like it's nothing as I'm nothing.
True that it hurts. It hurts badly but its okay! I will overcome it just like I always use to! I will get use to it. i will accept it.
Okay, I shall go to bed now! Good night world!
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11:28 AM
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
..:: What means the most to me::..
The other day when someone asked me
"are you living your dream?"
I didn't know what to say,
I honestly had to think.
I try to be so many places at the same time
Every day a million things cluttering up my mind.
Another feather falling off my wings
I climb so high it gets hard to breathe
Forget to remember, what I really need.
What means the most to me
Is waking up next to you.
Feel the morning breeze
Your my favorite thing in love
Coming home to your arms
When you kiss me hello
It's these simple things that mean the most to me.
That mean the most to me, yeah.
Every time I have to leave
I feel like I'm leaving a part of me
You're the only place I want to be.
Well nothing else matters
I just loose focus
Swinging all around cause your the only one I notice
I can't help the way I feel.
It doesn't matter if I win or Loose
Cuz
What means the most to me
Is waking up next to you
When you're holding me
& have a little time to play
In your arms rest your heart laugh till it gets dark
It's these simple things that mean the most to me
Yeahh ohh
No more days far away where I miss you.
No more nights trying to fall asleep without you
From now on I'm always gunna be there
I wont miss another day that we wont share
I'll be there
Cuz
You mean the most to me
Oh
You mean the most to me
Now that I'm here with you
I will stay by your side
I wont leave you this time
Oh no
The next time that someone asks me
"are you living your dream?"
I guess I'll know what to say
I wont even have to think.
Find this song really nice!!
What means the most to me??
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3:38 AM
Monday, July 18, 2011
..:: Sad::..
I'm awake now, can't fall asleep due to the bug in my room. Hates insects so much. They always drives me!
I'm actually very tired but I can't sleep! I Tot someone make my day but yet someone spoil it again. At times, I really feel like asking am I transparent? I didn't use any invisible coat, why is it always like Tat? Or is it that I'm not important at all? :/ So sad now... Seriously very sad!
Yet I can't do anything. can't change any fact. :/ I should forget it, try to sleep and wake up to study. :/
But I know I can't! sigh.. seriously FML!
I'm actually very tired but I can't sleep! I Tot someone make my day but yet someone spoil it again. At times, I really feel like asking am I transparent? I didn't use any invisible coat, why is it always like Tat? Or is it that I'm not important at all? :/ So sad now... Seriously very sad!
Yet I can't do anything. can't change any fact. :/ I should forget it, try to sleep and wake up to study. :/
But I know I can't! sigh.. seriously FML!
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10:27 AM
Sunday, July 17, 2011
..:: 遗忘天使::..
天使 是被人们遗忘的
是被爱恨弄脏的
现在我懂了 至少我不会再为你哭了
翅膀 是为爱而张开的
是为梦想受伤的
彼此伤害了 被谁拉开了 爱消失了
我给了爱 要你明白
雨声覆盖 阻止了爱
你总是会说 要我安静要我乖
能不能 别离开
我给了爱 还在等待
爱却一直 一直摔坏
让故事重来 情愿为你变平凡
把翅膀 摘下来 遗忘天使
是被爱恨弄脏的
现在我懂了 至少我不会再为你哭了
翅膀 是为爱而张开的
是为梦想受伤的
彼此伤害了 被谁拉开了 爱消失了
我给了爱 要你明白
雨声覆盖 阻止了爱
你总是会说 要我安静要我乖
能不能 别离开
我给了爱 还在等待
爱却一直 一直摔坏
让故事重来 情愿为你变平凡
把翅膀 摘下来 遗忘天使
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10:36 AM
Friday, July 15, 2011
..:: Bad days!!::..
I should really just don't care anymore. Believe that there's nothing left to be said.
Everything can be explained so far.
I'm just not important and like transparent.
Eventually, you wont feel guilt ignoring my msg.
Don't treat me like a fool as im not.
I will never wanna be one too.
Fk... just don't bother anymore bah.
Don't think anymore.
Its ok, its alright, it gonna be fine.
Damn bad mood.
This two days is just not my day.
FML... Sigh... just shoo everything off and shall concentrate on studies le.
Okay... im going to bed le.
Good night world.
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1:02 AM
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
..:: The difference that couldn't be deny::..
There will always be this difference that i could'nt deny..
This difference that after trying for so long, it is still a fact that i have to accept.
Just like there's so many pebbles in the above picture but i will never be the one that is in white color.
The difference is so huge, so obvious that other than accepting, there's nothing i could do.
A simple question gives a simple answer.
An obvious notice speaks a dozen words.
To me, you are no difference from others.
That's the answer i got. That's the fact i accepted.
I will never get the same answer that others got from you.
No matter how hard i tried deny, a fact is always a fact.
A fact that lies is all around the air. Telling lies is easier than telling a truth?
This is what i have noticed. Lies always win the truth. Why is this so?
Is it really so easy to lie yet so difficult to tell the truth?
Or lying is consider one of the personality that everyone have?
I had enough of lies. Enough of it.
Sick and tired of it. Sick of knowing its all lies and with knowing the truth but i cant do anything.
Sick of feeling hopeless. Sick of all the replies.
Life just isn't that easy as what it seems.
I'm just tired of everything.
说谎是人的本性吗？
说谎比说实话还要容易吗？
谎言就永远不会被识破吗？
人为什么总是选择说谎呢？
太复杂了，我想我永远都不会明了。
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12:07 AM
Friday, July 8, 2011
..:: You are the same as others!::..
This feeling sucks! You are no difference from the others. You are the same type of ppl as them. Doing things you said you won't. Doing things that you classified as sucks. You are just another liar. What for lie to someone that you are gg to sleep so never reply? When in fact you are still chatting with others? By ignoring the msg when you could just reply a short msg, this just terribly sucks.
I hate to say so but I seriously hate this to the max! Where's the respect you said? Wheres all the things you said you won't do!? Have you ate it all up? I'm disappointed! Seriously, utterly disappointed! Shall never believe Wat you said. Cause it might just be another bunch of lies! And I hate lies so much that if I could I would tear the person who lie tome apart!
Shall stop here. There's nothing left to be said!
I hate to say so but I seriously hate this to the max! Where's the respect you said? Wheres all the things you said you won't do!? Have you ate it all up? I'm disappointed! Seriously, utterly disappointed! Shall never believe Wat you said. Cause it might just be another bunch of lies! And I hate lies so much that if I could I would tear the person who lie tome apart!
Shall stop here. There's nothing left to be said!
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2:16 AM
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
..:: Cant sleep!!! :(::..
It's 5.22 am right now. Yeah... I can't sleep due to running nose and no fan. Mum spoil my fan last week. Worst still I have class later on in de afternoon. :( how to stay awake later, when I can't fall asleep now?
I'm emo-ing while I cant fall asleep now. Sigh.... Ear block again due to running nose this time. Really is Fml sia! Why I so sway? :(
Every time I think back, it's just like reality flashing back. That it is just a fact that the same thing will never be done to me. That's the difference and it was tested yesterday. Thats de truth! And I'm really sad bout it! But I can't do anything. Sigh.... Dun expect but accept, there will eventually be less disappointment bah???
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5:32 AM
Sunday, July 3, 2011
..:: Very Hot Sunday!::..
Arhx...its so hot!
Can the weather be a lil better?
Can my mood be a lil better?
Nah.... i dun think so...
In kind of pretty bad mood but i'll be alright soon i guess.
Just the thought of the difference..
I just feel so angry and sad.
But its still the truth no matter what.
So let it be eh.
Dun think about, dun care about it.
Life would be better.
Okay... i dunno what to write for the day le.
ENd here lo.
Sorry im emo-ing right now... =(
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5:40 PM