Tuesday, June 30, 2009
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My head feel so heavy right now.
Er....Feel like vomiting sia.
I guess seriously im sick too.
Er...di di pass me de germs.
He is a virus man.
Sob sob....
Had been feeling super tired this few days.
Mum say maybe im going to fall sick soon.
And here i am..is really a bit sick liao.
Sob sob... I hate to be sick.
Hmm...wondering why am i blogging at this timing instead of going out hur?
Supposed to be right at taka now de.
But cause im feeling tired and my di di fever mah.
So best to stay at home.
Therefore in de end i didnt turn up.
Feel so bad bout it.
Sorry guys.
Head really very heavy now sia.
Tong ku. Off to rest. Tata....
Er....Feel like vomiting sia.
I guess seriously im sick too.
Er...di di pass me de germs.
He is a virus man.
Sob sob....
Had been feeling super tired this few days.
Mum say maybe im going to fall sick soon.
And here i am..is really a bit sick liao.
Sob sob... I hate to be sick.
Hmm...wondering why am i blogging at this timing instead of going out hur?
Supposed to be right at taka now de.
But cause im feeling tired and my di di fever mah.
So best to stay at home.
Therefore in de end i didnt turn up.
Feel so bad bout it.
Sorry guys.
Head really very heavy now sia.
Tong ku. Off to rest. Tata....
kisses @ |
9:06 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
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Feeling really exhausted till no strength to do anything today.
How am i supposed to walk out of the house tml to meet bee yan, par, wj and clay tml sia.
Feeling super tired now eh.
But if i didnt turn up tml, it will be real sad eh.
Such a big clique ended up left only de 5 of us meeting.
And somemore is celebrate par's belated 21st birthday eh.
Haix... What had happened eh.
Gosh...di di is sick.
He having fever.
Gave me a super shock news this morning.
Thank god its just normal fever.
He had a 3 days mc.
Hope u get well soon, my dear didi.
I bet is u never drink plain water lah.
Ai yo... Dis year u dunno sick how many time liao hur??
Getting more and more weak like me...Hahahax....
Its a torture for me to stay home now a days.
Arhx...why cant i have peace at home?
Naggin is enough, and here comes unreasonable.
Damn f_____ cool hur....
Know how to vent ur bloody anger on me.
Why not think urself whose at wrong first hur?
Touch ur heart and feel what kind of dad u are first.
Im not ur venting anger machine lo.
Pissed off.
Even though u my dad doesnt means i have to guai guai let u vent ur unneccesarry anger on me kay.
Whats more who cause de fault.
Is u can... Im not de who drive and kenna fine can.
Im not de one who dun wanna pay for the fine can.
Damn shit...now is my fault.
And u showing me bloody attitude now.
U got attitude i dun have ah.
Piss.....piss...piss.
Grrrr........
What de hell is going on this month manx.
Just super not my month i guess.
Watever shit thing also happened on me.
Disappointment, anger, sad, i almost had all shit of feelings this month.
Haix.... Really exhausted le.
Every thing is driving me crazy.
Before my parents die, i think i will die earlier den them.
Stay at home kenna scold,
Go out kenna scold.
Watever le lah, its still de same ending and so i will just do wat i wanna do.
Arhx... Im seriously getting tired of all this.
I hated this world so much right now.
To die peacefully is all i wanted now, i guess.
I hope i can die peacefully one day.
And tat day is round de corner with every shit things that keep happening now.
How am i supposed to walk out of the house tml to meet bee yan, par, wj and clay tml sia.
Feeling super tired now eh.
But if i didnt turn up tml, it will be real sad eh.
Such a big clique ended up left only de 5 of us meeting.
And somemore is celebrate par's belated 21st birthday eh.
Haix... What had happened eh.
Gosh...di di is sick.
He having fever.
Gave me a super shock news this morning.
Thank god its just normal fever.
He had a 3 days mc.
Hope u get well soon, my dear didi.
I bet is u never drink plain water lah.
Ai yo... Dis year u dunno sick how many time liao hur??
Getting more and more weak like me...Hahahax....
Its a torture for me to stay home now a days.
Arhx...why cant i have peace at home?
Naggin is enough, and here comes unreasonable.
Damn f_____ cool hur....
Know how to vent ur bloody anger on me.
Why not think urself whose at wrong first hur?
Touch ur heart and feel what kind of dad u are first.
Im not ur venting anger machine lo.
Pissed off.
Even though u my dad doesnt means i have to guai guai let u vent ur unneccesarry anger on me kay.
Whats more who cause de fault.
Is u can... Im not de who drive and kenna fine can.
Im not de one who dun wanna pay for the fine can.
Damn shit...now is my fault.
And u showing me bloody attitude now.
U got attitude i dun have ah.
Piss.....piss...piss.
Grrrr........
What de hell is going on this month manx.
Just super not my month i guess.
Watever shit thing also happened on me.
Disappointment, anger, sad, i almost had all shit of feelings this month.
Haix.... Really exhausted le.
Every thing is driving me crazy.
Before my parents die, i think i will die earlier den them.
Stay at home kenna scold,
Go out kenna scold.
Watever le lah, its still de same ending and so i will just do wat i wanna do.
Arhx... Im seriously getting tired of all this.
I hated this world so much right now.
To die peacefully is all i wanted now, i guess.
I hope i can die peacefully one day.
And tat day is round de corner with every shit things that keep happening now.
kisses @ |
9:14 PM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
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Yesterday reach home at eleven plus,
Very tired so never blog.
Yesterday went to work after 2 weeks break.
Damn it...nose bleed at work again.
Second time liao sia.
And this 2 months i dunno nose bleed how many times liao sia.
Grr....tong ku sia...
Okay, den after work,
Met up with irene and ky for dinner as my parents and di di went to malaysia.
Den chi chat till eleven plus den rech home.
Extremly tired yesterday but ended also sleep quite late.
Lotsa thing happened yesterday.
It makes me feel super exhausted and totally worn out.
Now really no more strenght to care any more thing le.
Yuan lai if i make myself disappear, he also wont care much.
Therefore ok bahx.
Just be it.
I dun wanna care anymore le.
Really worn out this time.
And also finally clear something today.
Im really tired now. Tired till wanna just sleep forever.
I dunno wat to blog le lah.
Now no much mood.
Very tired so never blog.
Yesterday went to work after 2 weeks break.
Damn it...nose bleed at work again.
Second time liao sia.
And this 2 months i dunno nose bleed how many times liao sia.
Grr....tong ku sia...
Okay, den after work,
Met up with irene and ky for dinner as my parents and di di went to malaysia.
Den chi chat till eleven plus den rech home.
Extremly tired yesterday but ended also sleep quite late.
Lotsa thing happened yesterday.
It makes me feel super exhausted and totally worn out.
Now really no more strenght to care any more thing le.
Yuan lai if i make myself disappear, he also wont care much.
Therefore ok bahx.
Just be it.
I dun wanna care anymore le.
Really worn out this time.
And also finally clear something today.
Im really tired now. Tired till wanna just sleep forever.
I dunno wat to blog le lah.
Now no much mood.
kisses @ |
6:43 PM
Saturday, June 27, 2009
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Finally end all exam.
Already flunk 2 papers le,
And i was lucky enough that de question that came out today at least got 4 is i read be4 de.
If not i guess the very last paper i also dun have any confi at all lo.
Oh ya, jocelyn ah, jocelyn ah, im not like wat u say very clever,
No need study also will pass lah.
I very ben and dumb one leh.
I btc one leh... No study means die de lo.
So ya.... dun say so lah. I stress sia.
Hmm...catch up with recently haappened things.
First of all is friday nite, cause kenna pang seh by someone( dun bother to say anythng too).
Therefore meeting my sec sch friend for dinner and some chit chat session eh.
Had zhu cao at senja grand.
But me and BY never eat.
Oh yeah, forget to say who is present.
Got me, BY, XY, HT, ZH and LG.
After dinner went to XY's house to play.
Den around 10 headed to BPP for ice cream at mac and chatted till 11 plus eh.
Long time never saw HT and XY le.
Happy to meet them.
And recently added a friend in facebook.
And also added her in msn.
Hahax...super long time no contact with her too.
Glad to chat with her again eh.
Hmm...ya i think thats all eh... Okay stop here lah...Photos will upload them tml.
Im tired le.
Working on sat and sun.
Here i go off to sleep.
Nite everyone.
What exactly i wanted from him?
He wont ever know.
And i wont ever tell.
Already flunk 2 papers le,
And i was lucky enough that de question that came out today at least got 4 is i read be4 de.
If not i guess the very last paper i also dun have any confi at all lo.
Oh ya, jocelyn ah, jocelyn ah, im not like wat u say very clever,
No need study also will pass lah.
I very ben and dumb one leh.
I btc one leh... No study means die de lo.
So ya.... dun say so lah. I stress sia.
Hmm...catch up with recently haappened things.
First of all is friday nite, cause kenna pang seh by someone( dun bother to say anythng too).
Therefore meeting my sec sch friend for dinner and some chit chat session eh.
Had zhu cao at senja grand.
But me and BY never eat.
Oh yeah, forget to say who is present.
Got me, BY, XY, HT, ZH and LG.
After dinner went to XY's house to play.
Den around 10 headed to BPP for ice cream at mac and chatted till 11 plus eh.
Long time never saw HT and XY le.
Happy to meet them.
And recently added a friend in facebook.
And also added her in msn.
Hahax...super long time no contact with her too.
Glad to chat with her again eh.
Hmm...ya i think thats all eh... Okay stop here lah...Photos will upload them tml.
Im tired le.
Working on sat and sun.
Here i go off to sleep.
Nite everyone.
What exactly i wanted from him?
He wont ever know.
And i wont ever tell.
kisses @ |
12:58 AM
Thursday, June 25, 2009
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I dunno how to describe how im feeling right now.
Kind of piss off and kind of mixing a little sadness in it.
But i tink angry is of cause more den sad bahx.
I just simply dunno how to describe it.
Just really quite angry now.
I dun wan care le lah...
Haix.....
Forget bout it...
Reminding myself to forget bout it right now.
But i tink its difficult.
Haix...
Im seriously tired....
Dun have any mood to study at all.
Haix....sianx....
Wat should i do exactly...haix....
Kind of piss off and kind of mixing a little sadness in it.
But i tink angry is of cause more den sad bahx.
I just simply dunno how to describe it.
Just really quite angry now.
I dun wan care le lah...
Haix.....
Forget bout it...
Reminding myself to forget bout it right now.
But i tink its difficult.
Haix...
Im seriously tired....
Dun have any mood to study at all.
Haix....sianx....
Wat should i do exactly...haix....
kisses @ |
8:49 PM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
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Damn shit lah, till now flunk 2 papers liao.
Arhx.... Already very no mood le...
And here comes ridiculous nagging and scolding from dad.
Wtf lo...
Im his child and he said those kind of things.
Fine den...he is de father, yi jia zhi zhu..
Watever he say in dis house sure correct one.
Watever....Dun even bother to talk to him now.
Arhx...just supper duper hate to stay at dis home.
Both BIS and FM paper have to get at least 40 marks den can pass and get a D.
Damn seriously no confidence to even get 40 marks.
Shit lah...forget it... Dun care le lah.
Haix...
This isnt de life i wanted.
I wish i could stop the time at that very moment.
I wish i could do wat i could in de past.
I hope he will be the one who care and love me.
I hope he will be de one i could really treasure with all i could.
But all this hope...guess will nvr happened bahx.
Arhx.... Already very no mood le...
And here comes ridiculous nagging and scolding from dad.
Wtf lo...
Im his child and he said those kind of things.
Fine den...he is de father, yi jia zhi zhu..
Watever he say in dis house sure correct one.
Watever....Dun even bother to talk to him now.
Arhx...just supper duper hate to stay at dis home.
Both BIS and FM paper have to get at least 40 marks den can pass and get a D.
Damn seriously no confidence to even get 40 marks.
Shit lah...forget it... Dun care le lah.
Haix...
This isnt de life i wanted.
I wish i could stop the time at that very moment.
I wish i could do wat i could in de past.
I hope he will be the one who care and love me.
I hope he will be de one i could really treasure with all i could.
But all this hope...guess will nvr happened bahx.
kisses @ |
10:23 PM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
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I guess i know wat to do le bahx.
Everything happened for a reason.
Watever is de reason behind it.
I believe its fated.
If its meant to be mine, it will come back.
If its not, den means it had never ever been mine.
I didnt realise tat even till now,
There's no changes in my heart at all.
It holds the same people right there.
I know clearly how important and where he stand in my heart.
But all i ever wanted now was be friends and i will be happy enough.
Let fate take its course bahx...
Not going to care anymore le.
Everything happened for a reason.
Watever is de reason behind it.
I believe its fated.
If its meant to be mine, it will come back.
If its not, den means it had never ever been mine.
I didnt realise tat even till now,
There's no changes in my heart at all.
It holds the same people right there.
I know clearly how important and where he stand in my heart.
But all i ever wanted now was be friends and i will be happy enough.
Let fate take its course bahx...
Not going to care anymore le.
kisses @ |
11:31 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
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啊！！！！ 不行， 我做不到。。。
真的做不到啦！！！
而且他可能会生气啦！
我不要他生我的气啦。。。
怎么办呢？
He really angry with me now lah...
So regret for making him angry...
Ai yo...how lah.... =(
真的做不到啦！！！
而且他可能会生气啦！
我不要他生我的气啦。。。
怎么办呢？
He really angry with me now lah...
So regret for making him angry...
Ai yo...how lah.... =(
kisses @ |
9:56 PM
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人总是自私，贪心的吗？
我还希望自己有时候也会贪心，也会自私。
可是我做不到。
只希望他会永远开心。
只希望他过的很好。
为什么我做不到自私一点呢？
为什么做不到贪心一点呢？
为什么都不努力一点的靠近他呢？
反而开始害怕呢？
害怕自己会变得贪心吗？
或许吧。。。
人要懂得知足。。。我不要自己变得贪心，变得自私。
所以开始害怕。。。
害怕自己在做梦，
害怕历史会重演。
害怕这一切都不是真的。
慢慢开始觉得是时候要消失了。
知道他快乐就好。
他也不需要多一个我在他身边。
是时候消失了吧。
可是我做的到吗？
我想也希望我会做得到。
不说任何再见的消失，或许我真的做得到吧。
不能在向以前一样总是在他身边绕来绕去了。
明天一个人醒来的我会没事，依然还是会微笑。
真的会吗？
我还希望自己有时候也会贪心，也会自私。
可是我做不到。
只希望他会永远开心。
只希望他过的很好。
为什么我做不到自私一点呢？
为什么做不到贪心一点呢？
为什么都不努力一点的靠近他呢？
反而开始害怕呢？
害怕自己会变得贪心吗？
或许吧。。。
人要懂得知足。。。我不要自己变得贪心，变得自私。
所以开始害怕。。。
害怕自己在做梦，
害怕历史会重演。
害怕这一切都不是真的。
慢慢开始觉得是时候要消失了。
知道他快乐就好。
他也不需要多一个我在他身边。
是时候消失了吧。
可是我做的到吗？
我想也希望我会做得到。
不说任何再见的消失，或许我真的做得到吧。
不能在向以前一样总是在他身边绕来绕去了。
明天一个人醒来的我会没事，依然还是会微笑。
真的会吗？
kisses @ |
7:28 PM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
..:: 想回到过去。。。::..
突然好想回到过去，
好希望可以回到那段很快乐的过去。
可是那是不可能的。
想回到过去，试着让故事继续。
但没有能力的我，不管多么努力还是不可能的。
如果可以让他回到我的身边，我会很开心。
可是‘如果’在我的世界里。。。不会发生。
所以没有任何的期待。也就不会有任何的失望，难过。
After so many things that happened over de past 2 months.
I really grown up a lot.
No longer like wat i am in de past le.
For having de me now, there's one person i wanna thank him.
I tot that i will never have de chance to thank him liao de.
But thanks god for giving me a chance to say my thanks to him.
I use to give him really a lot of troubles and always make him worried.
Also make him angry. And he will always scold me and somehow or rather care bout me,
Even though he say he dun care le.
Because of him, i done a lot of things.
Make a very big mistake.
This is de first time when i needed him to be around,
He really suddenly talk to me again and be there for me.
I dunno whether he will read this not but i have already thanks him thru sms le.
But still wanna thank him again here.
Thanks a lot...
Now i just wanna maintain as wat we are now, friends.
I hope tat there wont be any lies in between us and he will be trueful to me from now on.
Thats my only wish for now.
Hope he is feeling better now.
Hmm....dunno wat to blog for now le.
I needa go study right now liao.
If not tml really will die.
Haix...
Dunno why i really very tired today.
Am i sick??
Haix...Dunno...
Happy father's day!!!
好希望可以回到那段很快乐的过去。
可是那是不可能的。
想回到过去，试着让故事继续。
但没有能力的我，不管多么努力还是不可能的。
如果可以让他回到我的身边，我会很开心。
可是‘如果’在我的世界里。。。不会发生。
所以没有任何的期待。也就不会有任何的失望，难过。
After so many things that happened over de past 2 months.
I really grown up a lot.
No longer like wat i am in de past le.
For having de me now, there's one person i wanna thank him.
I tot that i will never have de chance to thank him liao de.
But thanks god for giving me a chance to say my thanks to him.
I use to give him really a lot of troubles and always make him worried.
Also make him angry. And he will always scold me and somehow or rather care bout me,
Even though he say he dun care le.
Because of him, i done a lot of things.
Make a very big mistake.
This is de first time when i needed him to be around,
He really suddenly talk to me again and be there for me.
I dunno whether he will read this not but i have already thanks him thru sms le.
But still wanna thank him again here.
Thanks a lot...
Now i just wanna maintain as wat we are now, friends.
I hope tat there wont be any lies in between us and he will be trueful to me from now on.
Thats my only wish for now.
Hope he is feeling better now.
Hmm....dunno wat to blog for now le.
I needa go study right now liao.
If not tml really will die.
Haix...
Dunno why i really very tired today.
Am i sick??
Haix...Dunno...
Happy father's day!!!
kisses @ |
8:14 PM
Saturday, June 20, 2009
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Here to blog bout yesterday and today.
Yesterday i could only said that its de worst day of my week.
Feeling super not in de right mood.
And just something happened and i just dunno wat exactly went wrong.
Therefore, at night join stephen, ray, alan, johnny, travis and vivien for a drink at de pub.
Travis left early cause he cannot take it le.
I think he got a bit drunk liao le.
So left de six of us playing, chatting and drinking over there.
I can consider drink quite a lot bahx.
Cause keep kenna from de game.
Den vivien got drunk too.
She nearly go crazy sia.
Lolx.... First time see vivien drunk.
Dotz...
Left de pub at one, acc them go for their supper den jiu go home le.
Reach home at 2 plus but i didnt sleep at all till now.
Dunno why i just couldnt fall asleep.
HAix....turn and toss till morning.
It just keep bothering me till i cant fall asleep.
I make my first step out in facing de problem but de result wasnt good at all.
I should say there wasnt any result that came out.
Haix.... forget it. I dun care le lah.
I cant do much too.
Den this morning went to meet orlina, jia xian and hui min to ecp(east coast park).
Super tired cause didnt sleep at all.
But de outing was fun.
Know jia xian for a year plus, first time go outing with her.
Really got a lot of crap to talk too.
Overall, was really fun.
Photos is with hui min so have to get from her den can upload.
Den was just now, had so called father's day dinner with family.
De dinner wasnt nice to me lah.
But at least had a family gathering.
Suan not bad liao.
Okay, stop here le.
I really dunno wat to do now.
Haix.... Sianx... Fan arhs...
Yesterday i could only said that its de worst day of my week.
Feeling super not in de right mood.
And just something happened and i just dunno wat exactly went wrong.
Therefore, at night join stephen, ray, alan, johnny, travis and vivien for a drink at de pub.
Travis left early cause he cannot take it le.
I think he got a bit drunk liao le.
So left de six of us playing, chatting and drinking over there.
I can consider drink quite a lot bahx.
Cause keep kenna from de game.
Den vivien got drunk too.
She nearly go crazy sia.
Lolx.... First time see vivien drunk.
Dotz...
Left de pub at one, acc them go for their supper den jiu go home le.
Reach home at 2 plus but i didnt sleep at all till now.
Dunno why i just couldnt fall asleep.
HAix....turn and toss till morning.
It just keep bothering me till i cant fall asleep.
I make my first step out in facing de problem but de result wasnt good at all.
I should say there wasnt any result that came out.
Haix.... forget it. I dun care le lah.
I cant do much too.
Den this morning went to meet orlina, jia xian and hui min to ecp(east coast park).
Super tired cause didnt sleep at all.
But de outing was fun.
Know jia xian for a year plus, first time go outing with her.
Really got a lot of crap to talk too.
Overall, was really fun.
Photos is with hui min so have to get from her den can upload.
Den was just now, had so called father's day dinner with family.
De dinner wasnt nice to me lah.
But at least had a family gathering.
Suan not bad liao.
Okay, stop here le.
I really dunno wat to do now.
Haix.... Sianx... Fan arhs...
kisses @ |
9:29 PM
Friday, June 19, 2009
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This is my 200th post for this blog.
Just went out to meet irene gf.
Had a nice chat with her today.
Hoping that problems between de few of us will solve soon.
Or rather say de few of us i should say between de few of them bahx.
But anyway now it leaded to some problems between us too.
Well...gotta do something to it.
Thinking hard....
Feeling weird and strange over it.
But forget it...
No point thinking bout tat now.
Everything is over and is impossible.
No need care tat much bout what will happened in future.
Ya, therefore just heck care lolx. Hahax...
Just focus on thinking hard bout de problem i needa solve now lah.
De rest unnecessary to think so much too.
I really did grow up after all this that happened to me bahx, i guess.
Its kind of a good thing to me.
At least i learn to see things in a different way and stop holding on to things that doesnt belong to me.
Stop getting sad over things that isnt worth to be sad of.
NOw life seem so much lighter to me. Feel so relieve.
Hahax...
Okay end here for now.
Nite everyone. =)
Just went out to meet irene gf.
Had a nice chat with her today.
Hoping that problems between de few of us will solve soon.
Or rather say de few of us i should say between de few of them bahx.
But anyway now it leaded to some problems between us too.
Well...gotta do something to it.
Thinking hard....
Feeling weird and strange over it.
But forget it...
No point thinking bout tat now.
Everything is over and is impossible.
No need care tat much bout what will happened in future.
Ya, therefore just heck care lolx. Hahax...
Just focus on thinking hard bout de problem i needa solve now lah.
De rest unnecessary to think so much too.
I really did grow up after all this that happened to me bahx, i guess.
Its kind of a good thing to me.
At least i learn to see things in a different way and stop holding on to things that doesnt belong to me.
Stop getting sad over things that isnt worth to be sad of.
NOw life seem so much lighter to me. Feel so relieve.
Hahax...
Okay end here for now.
Nite everyone. =)
kisses @ |
12:01 AM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
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Quite a few things happened lately.
Mostly is sad de.
But everything finally comes to an end liao.
Cant say im not sad but somehow i feel relieve now.
Its like i drop off a burden on me.
Am i happy with how it is now?
Seriously i have no idea.
But im kind of use to it now le.
There is not much emotions left.
Maybe i really turn cold blooded le bahx.
Its kind of a good thing to me.
I love de cold blooded me. Hahax...
Basically, stay at home de whole day for today.
Too lazy to even step out of the house for at least a step.
Maybe cause not really in de mood bahx.
Didnt went help dad buy 4d so in de end mum went.
Cant blame me too mah, really feeling exhausted and no mood mah.
Anyway sorry mum and dad.
Okay come to think of it, i haven start studying yet lolx.
Those who thinks that im studying now really got to know me better le lolx.
For god sake joey style of studying is always last min de lolx.
But i think is time to do something tml le lah.
Cause friday and saturday not free.
So tml and sun must really start study liao.
Although dun feel like studying lah.
Tml gotta be a good kid.
Help mum sweep and mop de floor.
Hahahax.... Den after helping mum jiu start to memorize a bit BIS first.
MM next friday den exam so put it aside first.
Okay, stop here today.
My dear di di is not back home yet.
I guess he wanna kenna nag again.
Hahax...i wont help him de. Heehee...
Okay bye friend.
Mostly is sad de.
But everything finally comes to an end liao.
Cant say im not sad but somehow i feel relieve now.
Its like i drop off a burden on me.
Am i happy with how it is now?
Seriously i have no idea.
But im kind of use to it now le.
There is not much emotions left.
Maybe i really turn cold blooded le bahx.
Its kind of a good thing to me.
I love de cold blooded me. Hahax...
Basically, stay at home de whole day for today.
Too lazy to even step out of the house for at least a step.
Maybe cause not really in de mood bahx.
Didnt went help dad buy 4d so in de end mum went.
Cant blame me too mah, really feeling exhausted and no mood mah.
Anyway sorry mum and dad.
Okay come to think of it, i haven start studying yet lolx.
Those who thinks that im studying now really got to know me better le lolx.
For god sake joey style of studying is always last min de lolx.
But i think is time to do something tml le lah.
Cause friday and saturday not free.
So tml and sun must really start study liao.
Although dun feel like studying lah.
Tml gotta be a good kid.
Help mum sweep and mop de floor.
Hahahax.... Den after helping mum jiu start to memorize a bit BIS first.
MM next friday den exam so put it aside first.
Okay, stop here today.
My dear di di is not back home yet.
I guess he wanna kenna nag again.
Hahax...i wont help him de. Heehee...
Okay bye friend.
kisses @ |
10:20 PM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
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Went out with didi, kelvin cousin, nephew and aunt anna just now.
Acc them for dinner.
Den visited fift uncle.
Glad that his check up was alright.
Den after that came back home.
Jiu use com liao.
Fucking bored right now.
Cant stop my mind from thinking but forget it.
Just leave it as it is.
Wan think jiu go and think.
No much emotions left too anyway.
Tired of everything.
I no need friends who only cares bout themselve.
I no need any sorry from him especially.
Get out of my life if u guys are not sincere to be my friends.
I have had enough of everything.
Not going to believe in ppl so easily in future.
I rather dun believe in anyone.
Acc them for dinner.
Den visited fift uncle.
Glad that his check up was alright.
Den after that came back home.
Jiu use com liao.
Fucking bored right now.
Cant stop my mind from thinking but forget it.
Just leave it as it is.
Wan think jiu go and think.
No much emotions left too anyway.
Tired of everything.
I no need friends who only cares bout themselve.
I no need any sorry from him especially.
Get out of my life if u guys are not sincere to be my friends.
I have had enough of everything.
Not going to believe in ppl so easily in future.
I rather dun believe in anyone.
kisses @ |
11:54 PM
..::
Wont blog bout those sad things of yesterday le.
Forget bout it. Be it. Leave it as it is.
Okay yesterday went down to bugis iluma to meet up with vivien, ray, travis, stephen and his friend for dinner. Shortly after dinner rebecca join us for movie, Ghosts of girlfriends past. It was a nice show. After movie, de few of us headed to caesars pub. After that cab home with vivien, stephen and his friend.
Feeling super not in de right mood now.
But wat can i do??
And why am i having a kind of strange and weird feelings which i shouldnt have.
Arhx.....damn shit.
Forget bout it. Be it. Leave it as it is.
Okay yesterday went down to bugis iluma to meet up with vivien, ray, travis, stephen and his friend for dinner. Shortly after dinner rebecca join us for movie, Ghosts of girlfriends past. It was a nice show. After movie, de few of us headed to caesars pub. After that cab home with vivien, stephen and his friend.
Feeling super not in de right mood now.
But wat can i do??
And why am i having a kind of strange and weird feelings which i shouldnt have.
Arhx.....damn shit.
kisses @ |
11:09 AM
Monday, June 15, 2009
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kisses @ |
2:12 PM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
..::
Back from genting.
Super tired now after not sleeping for 2 nights.
Gotta catch my sleep back later on.
Feeling of home sweet home is good but i dun wanna face all de cruelty facts.
But i have no choice left to choose.
Anyway, i dunno wat to blog at the moment too.
So gotta end here le.
I gave up on everything.
Super tired now after not sleeping for 2 nights.
Gotta catch my sleep back later on.
Feeling of home sweet home is good but i dun wanna face all de cruelty facts.
But i have no choice left to choose.
Anyway, i dunno wat to blog at the moment too.
So gotta end here le.
I gave up on everything.
kisses @ |
11:23 PM
Friday, June 12, 2009
..::
Went to Bugis to bai bai yesterday afternoon.
Follow by IT fair.
And i very accurate de predicted my dear irene gf will saw her friend derek working at IT fair.
And BINGO... hahax...My prediction came through.
Should have bet with her den can call her treat me.
Hahax... But she strangle me for that lo. So bad...
How i noe i so zhun de.
And IT fair so big how i noe really saw him
And i kenna shock by him leh, stil strangle me. =(
Okay den we headed back home.
And along de trip yesterday,
Kind of say got unhappy things.
And i really dun wish that it will worsen.
Im like stuck in between and yet i cant do anything for de 2 of u.
I feel sad bout it.
Hope things will get better for u two.
Haix...
Oh...to some of my friends who is going for NS this month.
Take lotsa care and jia you wor! LOLX...
Happened to saw wee kiat at lrt station today.
He booking in tml. Hahax...managed to call him jia you and take care also not bad.
LOLx....anyway god bless them.
Okay gonna stop here le.
Hell...i have nth to do now.
And mind just start to drift again.
Haix....
Okay bye everyone. End here liao.
Nothing will stay de same forever.
Disappointment is all i get.
Follow by IT fair.
And i very accurate de predicted my dear irene gf will saw her friend derek working at IT fair.
And BINGO... hahax...My prediction came through.
Should have bet with her den can call her treat me.
Hahax... But she strangle me for that lo. So bad...
How i noe i so zhun de.
And IT fair so big how i noe really saw him
And i kenna shock by him leh, stil strangle me. =(
Okay den we headed back home.
And along de trip yesterday,
Kind of say got unhappy things.
And i really dun wish that it will worsen.
Im like stuck in between and yet i cant do anything for de 2 of u.
I feel sad bout it.
Hope things will get better for u two.
Haix...
Oh...to some of my friends who is going for NS this month.
Take lotsa care and jia you wor! LOLX...
Happened to saw wee kiat at lrt station today.
He booking in tml. Hahax...managed to call him jia you and take care also not bad.
LOLx....anyway god bless them.
Okay gonna stop here le.
Hell...i have nth to do now.
And mind just start to drift again.
Haix....
Okay bye everyone. End here liao.
Nothing will stay de same forever.
Disappointment is all i get.
kisses @ |
12:31 AM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
..::
Today is just another day to go to school as usual.
And as usual today lesson sure is bored de.
But beside bored it will be so call a waste of my time de lesson.
Cause tips already get liao.
Today is to go school clear doubts only.
But i doubt i got any to clear lah.
Dotx... So is my so call waste time lesson lolx.
Yesterday went to causeway point with my irene gf.
Lolx.... chatted a lot at there.
And i bought myself a cap yesterday.
And also bought a pair of slippers for my di di.
Size 12 de slippers very hard to find de lo.
My poor di di finally got slippers wear liao.
Later after class meeting irene gf at bugis.
Go shop shop and bai bai.
Den 5.45 gonna meet ky gf at city hall.
Going for de IT fair later on.
Long time no eat dinner with them liao.
Finally can meet them for dinner le.
And stephen just ask me out for dinner on monday with vivien, ray and travis lolx.
Kind of shock to see de msg lah.
But anyway monday going amk hub to meet them.
Looking forward too but Jane not around.
A pity sia. My dear jane gf not around.
Okay gtg le.
End here liao. Bye bye.
kisses @ |
10:40 AM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
..::
突然好想哭。
莫名的伤心，
莫名的失落。
不知为什么。
不知道为了什么而想哭。
不知道为什么会这么觉得。
我想我知道要怎么做了。
可是。。。是对的吗？
不会后悔吗？
好烦。。。
不管了。。。走一步，看一步吧。
累了。。。
对于那个莫名而来的失落，
只是短站的。
很快就会过去了。
感觉身边的人都会慢慢的离开。
会慢慢的消失。。。
心好沉重。。。
泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我
莫名的伤心，
莫名的失落。
不知为什么。
不知道为了什么而想哭。
不知道为什么会这么觉得。
我想我知道要怎么做了。
可是。。。是对的吗？
不会后悔吗？
好烦。。。
不管了。。。走一步，看一步吧。
累了。。。
对于那个莫名而来的失落，
只是短站的。
很快就会过去了。
感觉身边的人都会慢慢的离开。
会慢慢的消失。。。
心好沉重。。。
泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我
kisses @ |
11:29 AM
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
..::
Dunno how to describe my feelings now.
Disappointed?? Sad?? Tired?? Moody??
Its all mixed up.
A bit of here and there and therefore it equals to im lost.
Dunno wat can i do now.
Dun care le bahx.
Hao fan....
Perhaps its really time to stop le.
Or perhaps its not?
But if it isnt meant to stop den what is going on now?
Leave it as it is bahx.
When de day come, den maybe i will have a clear picture of wats going on le bahx.
All projects handed in.
Feeling kind of relax cause finally no more project but exam is coming up.
Left MM haven get tips yet.
Hopefully tml will get ah.
Boring wednesday to have MM class. Haix...
Disappointed?? Sad?? Tired?? Moody??
Its all mixed up.
A bit of here and there and therefore it equals to im lost.
Dunno wat can i do now.
Dun care le bahx.
Hao fan....
Perhaps its really time to stop le.
Or perhaps its not?
But if it isnt meant to stop den what is going on now?
Leave it as it is bahx.
When de day come, den maybe i will have a clear picture of wats going on le bahx.
All projects handed in.
Feeling kind of relax cause finally no more project but exam is coming up.
Left MM haven get tips yet.
Hopefully tml will get ah.
Boring wednesday to have MM class. Haix...
kisses @ |
7:57 PM
Monday, June 8, 2009
..::
Went to last tutorial for BIS today.
Got tips from teacher.
Hopefully can pass de paper on 22nd.
4 more days to mark an end to all the lesson for first semester.
But for me is 3 lah, cause will be skipping friday de lesson.
Hopefully all the tips get before thursday lolx.
Mum bought us pillows today!!!
Thank you mummy!
Got a new pillow. Lolx.
Tml is FM lesson sure is super sianx de.
Dunno wat will he teach lah.
Best is give us tips lolx.
Lolx.
Not in a good mood currently.
Kinda feeling sad. Why am i feeling so.
A little bit of shock to know this.
But everything will come to an absolute end soon.
So forget it bahx.
If u wanna stay jiu stay, wanna leave jiu leave.
I have nothing to say and i have nothing that could be done le.
Got tips from teacher.
Hopefully can pass de paper on 22nd.
4 more days to mark an end to all the lesson for first semester.
But for me is 3 lah, cause will be skipping friday de lesson.
Hopefully all the tips get before thursday lolx.
Mum bought us pillows today!!!
Thank you mummy!
Got a new pillow. Lolx.
Tml is FM lesson sure is super sianx de.
Dunno wat will he teach lah.
Best is give us tips lolx.
Lolx.
Not in a good mood currently.
Kinda feeling sad. Why am i feeling so.
A little bit of shock to know this.
But everything will come to an absolute end soon.
So forget it bahx.
If u wanna stay jiu stay, wanna leave jiu leave.
I have nothing to say and i have nothing that could be done le.
kisses @ |
9:04 PM
..::
Going to school soon.
But kind of not in de right mood at the moment.
I really seriously hated 7 of every month.
It super seems to be my bad luck day.
Damn...Haix... Forget it.
What gone is gone, whats going to leave just let it leave.
I dunno wat to do liao.
Forget it den.
Okay dun crap liao i go shower le.
Im really tired.
I know i could stop thinking but wat cause me to keep thinking is cause no sense of security.
But u will never know and understand de.
Suan le.
Its a monday.
How i wish weekend faster come.
Last tutorial for BIS, Gambate and survive through today.
But kind of not in de right mood at the moment.
I really seriously hated 7 of every month.
It super seems to be my bad luck day.
Damn...Haix... Forget it.
What gone is gone, whats going to leave just let it leave.
I dunno wat to do liao.
Forget it den.
Okay dun crap liao i go shower le.
Im really tired.
I know i could stop thinking but wat cause me to keep thinking is cause no sense of security.
But u will never know and understand de.
Suan le.
Its a monday.
How i wish weekend faster come.
Last tutorial for BIS, Gambate and survive through today.
kisses @ |
11:55 AM
Sunday, June 7, 2009
..::
Work at kidzworkd today.
Hoho...Was fun lolx.
Not like wat i firstly thought.
Usually go in is very bored de.
But today maybe cause quite a lot of crowd so not tat bored.
Took some photos over there eh.
This is when i got nth to do in class.
Okay nth to blog for today.
Nite everyone.
Oh ya...my didi saay will prove to me, he will recover in 2 days.
haha...we will see. Lolx.
I miss.....
Hoho...Was fun lolx.
Not like wat i firstly thought.
Usually go in is very bored de.
But today maybe cause quite a lot of crowd so not tat bored.
Took some photos over there eh.
This is when i got nth to do in class.
Okay nth to blog for today.
Nite everyone.
Oh ya...my didi saay will prove to me, he will recover in 2 days.
haha...we will see. Lolx.
I miss.....
kisses @ |
9:58 PM
Saturday, June 6, 2009
..::
Today got no time to slack at work lo.
Super tired sia.
Got damn lots of ppl going to the zoo.
Haha...maybe one day i must go in and walk walk too lol.
Like quite long never go in walk walk liao.
Who wanna pei me go leh?
Lolx..Random question.
Tml working kidzworld.
Have to wake up super early de.
Sianx... but no choice had to go work lah.
Haix... Tml end at 5.45pm so can come home finish my project.
Heehee...
Okay off to watch show le.
Bye everyone.
Im tired of everything.
Why am i always listening to tons of lies from ppl?
Feel like shutting my brain up. haix...
Super tired sia.
Got damn lots of ppl going to the zoo.
Haha...maybe one day i must go in and walk walk too lol.
Like quite long never go in walk walk liao.
Who wanna pei me go leh?
Lolx..Random question.
Tml working kidzworld.
Have to wake up super early de.
Sianx... but no choice had to go work lah.
Haix... Tml end at 5.45pm so can come home finish my project.
Heehee...
Okay off to watch show le.
Bye everyone.
Im tired of everything.
Why am i always listening to tons of lies from ppl?
Feel like shutting my brain up. haix...
kisses @ |
11:12 PM
Friday, June 5, 2009
..::
Yes...last lecturer for BIS....
But still got one more tutorial class next monday.
And more sianx de is, during study break will have one extra lesson. Sianx...
I dun feel like going lah.
But for de sake of tips...must go lah.
Suddenly feel like going to rebond my hair.
But dear irene say waste money.
Call me dun go rebond.
So still thinking bout it.
But i needa buy a phone first lah.
My sony z770 is dying on me.
Especially this few days lah.
Keep dyin on me, make me pissed off.
Haix...new phone new phone.
If a phone drop from de sky jiu hao lo.
Lolx...impossible de... im crazy liao. Talking crap again.
Next week kinda busy week ah.
Still deciding on which day to meet out with my ah bee ah yi, ah ling they all to buy Par mummy de 21st birthday present.
Either mon, tue or wed.
Cause my thursday is being book by my gfs irene and ky liao.
Den Friday to Sunday i not in singapore le.
Busy but very chong shi de week neh.
Its kinda good too, help me to forget things.
Hahax...
Ok lah...stop here le.
Kor is back but he ate my lolli pop away.
So bad...he himself ate all de 3 lolli pop.
Den save any for me.
Dun care must call him buy me lolli pop again. ( hahahax...lolx...)
Recover fast neh, my dear di di.
6 more days for ur leg to recover. Gambate.
But still got one more tutorial class next monday.
And more sianx de is, during study break will have one extra lesson. Sianx...
I dun feel like going lah.
But for de sake of tips...must go lah.
Suddenly feel like going to rebond my hair.
But dear irene say waste money.
Call me dun go rebond.
So still thinking bout it.
But i needa buy a phone first lah.
My sony z770 is dying on me.
Especially this few days lah.
Keep dyin on me, make me pissed off.
Haix...new phone new phone.
If a phone drop from de sky jiu hao lo.
Lolx...impossible de... im crazy liao. Talking crap again.
Next week kinda busy week ah.
Still deciding on which day to meet out with my ah bee ah yi, ah ling they all to buy Par mummy de 21st birthday present.
Either mon, tue or wed.
Cause my thursday is being book by my gfs irene and ky liao.
Den Friday to Sunday i not in singapore le.
Busy but very chong shi de week neh.
Its kinda good too, help me to forget things.
Hahax...
Ok lah...stop here le.
Kor is back but he ate my lolli pop away.
So bad...he himself ate all de 3 lolli pop.
Den save any for me.
Dun care must call him buy me lolli pop again. ( hahahax...lolx...)
Recover fast neh, my dear di di.
6 more days for ur leg to recover. Gambate.
kisses @ |
10:13 PM
Thursday, June 4, 2009
..::
Really gave an end to everything.
Now that everything is gone, i cant say that im not sad at all.
But anyway im more or less use to it le.
Stay or leave is not within my reach.
So be it.
Went to my nephew, jian long de de birthday celebration today.
Happy Birthday to the little kid ah.
Photos is with his mum. I didnt take any lolx.
Aunt bought me a new wallet.
Thank u aunt.
Cant wait for next week to come lah.
Hahax... Ok end here today.
kisses @ |
11:19 PM
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
..::
Arhx...had a long day at school.
Super tired now.
No energy left lah.
I dunno whether should i believe in it?
I seriously dunno.
Arhx...haix....suan le....
Watever it is....just leave it as it is.
Nth much to blog today.
Handed in my MM project liao.
Next is BIS.
I haven print yet leh. Lazy to on printer.
Di di injured his leg lolx.
Now bandage till like dunno wat sia.
His leg already quite big le lo.
Size 46 le leh.
Now swollen le, i think need size 48 le lo.
Hahahax... Opps cannot be so bad.
But last time he also laugh at me when i sprain my leg.
So my turn to laugh at him back lolx.
Heehee...
But i very good hor....still take care of him leh.
Hope he recover fast fast lah.
If not go genting i no one to pei me play leh.
I only got him as my khaki when go there lah.
Without him, i will rot there lah.
So pls dear di di, faster recover ah.
If not dad n mum dun let u go ah.
Okay end here le.
I miss my kor kor.
Or rather should i say i miss my lolli pop.
He buy us lolli pop but he bring all 3 back to his camp.
How can like tat neh??
Hahax... got kor kor zhen hao....
Father's day is coming....
Oh gosh...what should i get for dad?
Something useful and he wont nag at??
Headache.
Super tired now.
No energy left lah.
I dunno whether should i believe in it?
I seriously dunno.
Arhx...haix....suan le....
Watever it is....just leave it as it is.
Nth much to blog today.
Handed in my MM project liao.
Next is BIS.
I haven print yet leh. Lazy to on printer.
Di di injured his leg lolx.
Now bandage till like dunno wat sia.
His leg already quite big le lo.
Size 46 le leh.
Now swollen le, i think need size 48 le lo.
Hahahax... Opps cannot be so bad.
But last time he also laugh at me when i sprain my leg.
So my turn to laugh at him back lolx.
Heehee...
But i very good hor....still take care of him leh.
Hope he recover fast fast lah.
If not go genting i no one to pei me play leh.
I only got him as my khaki when go there lah.
Without him, i will rot there lah.
So pls dear di di, faster recover ah.
If not dad n mum dun let u go ah.
Okay end here le.
I miss my kor kor.
Or rather should i say i miss my lolli pop.
He buy us lolli pop but he bring all 3 back to his camp.
How can like tat neh??
Hahax... got kor kor zhen hao....
Father's day is coming....
Oh gosh...what should i get for dad?
Something useful and he wont nag at??
Headache.
kisses @ |
9:47 PM
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
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BIS class is real boring today.
But luckily lesson end earlier.
Its like only half an hour going through unit 8.
Den jiu do case study liao.
Jocelyn, Jiao and me finish our case study at bout 4 plus.
But he dun let us leave.
Den he gave us break.
But den break finish he say can go home le.
Wth right?? Waste our time.
So manage to board a less crowded train home eh.
Everyday like tat de hua jiu hao.
Tml got 2 lesson sia. FM and MM.
6 hours in school is a torture lah.
Will cry sia. Especially when MM is de 3.30 class.
Wo de tian ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haix...
Endure endure endure. =(
Sat got a class gathering but i think i cant go.
Cause working till 7.30.
So so so sorry lah, my dear secondary school friend.
Feel so bad bout it.
But i really cannot make it mah.
So cannot blame me lah.
This week faster end hao mah.
Why time pass so slow neh...?
Haix...
Ok nth to blog le.
I had put a full stop and end that le.
But i dun feel good at all.
But luckily lesson end earlier.
Its like only half an hour going through unit 8.
Den jiu do case study liao.
Jocelyn, Jiao and me finish our case study at bout 4 plus.
But he dun let us leave.
Den he gave us break.
But den break finish he say can go home le.
Wth right?? Waste our time.
So manage to board a less crowded train home eh.
Everyday like tat de hua jiu hao.
Tml got 2 lesson sia. FM and MM.
6 hours in school is a torture lah.
Will cry sia. Especially when MM is de 3.30 class.
Wo de tian ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haix...
Endure endure endure. =(
Sat got a class gathering but i think i cant go.
Cause working till 7.30.
So so so sorry lah, my dear secondary school friend.
Feel so bad bout it.
But i really cannot make it mah.
So cannot blame me lah.
This week faster end hao mah.
Why time pass so slow neh...?
Haix...
Ok nth to blog le.
I had put a full stop and end that le.
But i dun feel good at all.
kisses @ |
10:03 PM
..::
Just back home not long ago after a short gathering with jane, vivien, stephen, ray and rebecca.
Had fun chatting with them.
Rush down to orchard just to meet them at seven plus lo.
See....i very good rite...
Haha....
Today is BIS lesson again.
SUre is another boring day ahead.
Arhx....wat a boring day... Haix...
I dun feel like going for BIS class lah.
Oh ya got news from my dear xue qi jie tat my schedule is being change.
Hah... Like finally hur??
Lolx..forget it...dun bother to care too lah. heehee...
Hoho....gonna print my BIS project out before i go school.
Must remember sia.
Blur blur joey will forget de.
But haven due date yet so hai ok lah.
Just print earlier in case only.
Heehee...
Like wat i said...i made up my decision.
Bring an end by running away.
Treat as nth has happened before.
Back to zero...
Had fun chatting with them.
Rush down to orchard just to meet them at seven plus lo.
See....i very good rite...
Haha....
Today is BIS lesson again.
SUre is another boring day ahead.
Arhx....wat a boring day... Haix...
I dun feel like going for BIS class lah.
Oh ya got news from my dear xue qi jie tat my schedule is being change.
Hah... Like finally hur??
Lolx..forget it...dun bother to care too lah. heehee...
Hoho....gonna print my BIS project out before i go school.
Must remember sia.
Blur blur joey will forget de.
But haven due date yet so hai ok lah.
Just print earlier in case only.
Heehee...
Like wat i said...i made up my decision.
Bring an end by running away.
Treat as nth has happened before.
Back to zero...
kisses @ |
12:15 AM
Monday, June 1, 2009
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Visited my own blog after reaching home from school.
Wondering who is hihi this person who left a tag in my tagged board.
So who exactly this person is leh?
Guess will know soon bahx.
Waited for a day le.
Msg duty handphone also got nobody bother to reply.
This is what management is called mah??
Is this call responsible enough in doing their job??
Haha....since they dun bother to reply wat for i bother bout it ner?
So easy.... they heck care den i also heck care lo.
Thats wat kind of examply they set for me to learn.
So i must learn it, not only learn it must master it just like them.
Therefore i dun care le lolx.
Hahahax.... none of my business.
I did my part in smsing them, but they dun care so not my problem anymore.
Dun try to force me go any further,
Things will only get worst if i have to come to de very last solution.
I will not hesitate to speak out.
Im going to watch bai quan nv wang last episode le.
Hohoho....jocelyn say is nice lolx.
Cant wait to watch it.
Waiting for it to load now.
After watching le must sms kor and tempt him.
Hahahaha.... He just start to watch on friday only.
Hoho....tempt him bout de ending.
He booked out le sure chiong de show de sia.
Bleahx.
Okay...gonna go watch my bleach de manga liao.
Its time to have an answer to myself le.
I choose to run away.
Run away from de one inside my heart.
Run away from all the lies and hurtx.
Running away is all i wanna do now.
kisses @ |
5:30 PM