Tuesday, March 31, 2009
..::
Marketing management lesson today.
Is bored de.
Nothing much to do in class.
Ended up msging with him.
And things turn out to be a pretty sad one for me.
And to him maybe a little anger bah.
Haix... How will things turn out to be like ner?
Do he still have a little bit of feelings for me beside feeling sorry?
I really start to wonder,
Is it right to tell u bout it.
Or is it a mistake?
Do u believe in me?
U said u believe but u really do??
Nearly burst into tears in class today when i see ur reply.
De feeling of pain of having a broken heart.
Only u can break it and fix it back again.
Did i really let go??
I guess maybe not bahx.
Cause somehow, somewhere deep in my heart still long for u to be here again.
Telling u bout it,
Needs a lot of courage de.
But facing wat u said needs more courage den telling u bout it.
When u say u care and is important to u.
I really felt so happy.
But i guess u only care for me as a friend bah.
U are never gone in my heart.
U are always there.
Always standing at de place where no one can pull u down.
I really hate to admit but im really missing u.
Will i ever get to see u again??
Will u ever wish tat i will be there for u too?
I guess i will forever be ur silly gal bah.
A mistake done and nothing can save it anymore.
Will u feel heart pain after knowing it?
I miss u terribly. <3
Is bored de.
Nothing much to do in class.
Ended up msging with him.
And things turn out to be a pretty sad one for me.
And to him maybe a little anger bah.
Haix... How will things turn out to be like ner?
Do he still have a little bit of feelings for me beside feeling sorry?
I really start to wonder,
Is it right to tell u bout it.
Or is it a mistake?
Do u believe in me?
U said u believe but u really do??
Nearly burst into tears in class today when i see ur reply.
De feeling of pain of having a broken heart.
Only u can break it and fix it back again.
Did i really let go??
I guess maybe not bahx.
Cause somehow, somewhere deep in my heart still long for u to be here again.
Telling u bout it,
Needs a lot of courage de.
But facing wat u said needs more courage den telling u bout it.
When u say u care and is important to u.
I really felt so happy.
But i guess u only care for me as a friend bah.
U are never gone in my heart.
U are always there.
Always standing at de place where no one can pull u down.
I really hate to admit but im really missing u.
Will i ever get to see u again??
Will u ever wish tat i will be there for u too?
I guess i will forever be ur silly gal bah.
A mistake done and nothing can save it anymore.
Will u feel heart pain after knowing it?
I miss u terribly. <3
kisses @ |
10:16 PM
Monday, March 30, 2009
..::
Tutorial class today was real bored.
Went in le, jiu start solving question.
Five plus finish liao jiu can leave le.
Somemore lecturer nvr check at all lo.
WTH...waste my time only.
Back home at seven.
Read books and chit chat with my mama and didi,
Den pei my mama watch channel 8 9pm de show.
After that jiu online again liao.
Really nth better to do sia.
Therefore mind goes wandering off again.
Sianx and pretty bad mood day.
Ok ending here today.
ii really hate to admit that ii still......
Went in le, jiu start solving question.
Five plus finish liao jiu can leave le.
Somemore lecturer nvr check at all lo.
WTH...waste my time only.
Back home at seven.
Read books and chit chat with my mama and didi,
Den pei my mama watch channel 8 9pm de show.
After that jiu online again liao.
Really nth better to do sia.
Therefore mind goes wandering off again.
Sianx and pretty bad mood day.
Ok ending here today.
ii really hate to admit that ii still......
kisses @ |
10:17 PM
..::
Lesson at 4 today.
Dun feel like going.
But still have to.
Tutorial class for 2 hours.
I sure will be damn super boring later on.
Wake up with a swollen eyes.
It dun seem to be fun at all.
But it cannot be controled too.
No longer important anymore le bah.
Just let it be.
No matter how hard i tried,
Nothing seems to change,
So let it be bah...
Ur heart is cold as ice,
Ur words as usual hurts like hell.
Yet.....
Dun feel like going.
But still have to.
Tutorial class for 2 hours.
I sure will be damn super boring later on.
Wake up with a swollen eyes.
It dun seem to be fun at all.
But it cannot be controled too.
No longer important anymore le bah.
Just let it be.
No matter how hard i tried,
Nothing seems to change,
So let it be bah...
Ur heart is cold as ice,
Ur words as usual hurts like hell.
Yet.....
kisses @ |
10:55 AM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
..::
Work opening shift today.
Damn tired lah.
Feel like im gonna sick real soon.
Just when can i stop faking smile?
I feel like im suffocating.
De feeling is seriously terrible to de max.
Arhx...!!!!
Why is tat so??
I just needed...
Just needed tat someone to be here for me,
But tats totally impossible.
Its like im an empty shell living in a very fake world.
All de care, all de love, all de watever seem so fake.
PPl around me, how many are true?
I cant even differentiate now.
Im lost, im confused.
Just wat should i do?
I know i shouldnt be waiting but deep in my heart,
It wanted to wait.
Orly say just by waiting is enough.
I agree with her,
But it hurts when u know clearly tat de person u waiting for is waiting for someone else.
And that he dun really even care wat happened to u,
And he wont be there for u.
Why i know i feel hurt and yet willing to follow my heart?
If god heard my wishes they would have long ago granted them.
And bring tat him back to me.
Apparently god didnt hear my wishes and is nt there to grant them for me.
I have long forgotten how to wish to de god le.
Since de very day....
I know everyone want me to forget bout it,
Including tat someone.
But i really cant...
Just like he cant....
Haix...
If mind and heart can cooperate with each other na gai duo hao.
Damn tired lah.
Feel like im gonna sick real soon.
Just when can i stop faking smile?
I feel like im suffocating.
De feeling is seriously terrible to de max.
Arhx...!!!!
Why is tat so??
I just needed...
Just needed tat someone to be here for me,
But tats totally impossible.
Its like im an empty shell living in a very fake world.
All de care, all de love, all de watever seem so fake.
PPl around me, how many are true?
I cant even differentiate now.
Im lost, im confused.
Just wat should i do?
I know i shouldnt be waiting but deep in my heart,
It wanted to wait.
Orly say just by waiting is enough.
I agree with her,
But it hurts when u know clearly tat de person u waiting for is waiting for someone else.
And that he dun really even care wat happened to u,
And he wont be there for u.
Why i know i feel hurt and yet willing to follow my heart?
If god heard my wishes they would have long ago granted them.
And bring tat him back to me.
Apparently god didnt hear my wishes and is nt there to grant them for me.
I have long forgotten how to wish to de god le.
Since de very day....
I know everyone want me to forget bout it,
Including tat someone.
But i really cant...
Just like he cant....
Haix...
If mind and heart can cooperate with each other na gai duo hao.
kisses @ |
11:16 PM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
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Today seem to past so slow.
Every min every sec seem to be pulling me apart.
I feel like giving up.
I wanna give up.
Give up everything.
Leaving an empty shell of mine facing everything.
Im tired...
Sick and tired of everything tats is happening at home.
Sick and tired of faking.
Sick and tired of trying to forget.
Sick and tired of Forcing myself to stop___________
Sick and tired of every single thing around me.
Sick and tired of knowing im all alone and yet telling myself im not.
Sick and tired of telling lies to myself.
Just when i need u de most,
What u shown me is ur heart tat is as cold as ice.
How i wish u were de one here for me.
If ever i could say pls dun go to u again.
But de me now no longer had any rights to say so.
Words left unspoken will never be transfer into ur ears.
Cause to u they no longer had de need to be listen anymore.
Happy birthday to u.
我放弃了所有，包括自己。
因为我再也没有欺骗自己的心得力气，
也没有办法再面对自己的心了。
Every min every sec seem to be pulling me apart.
I feel like giving up.
I wanna give up.
Give up everything.
Leaving an empty shell of mine facing everything.
Im tired...
Sick and tired of everything tats is happening at home.
Sick and tired of faking.
Sick and tired of trying to forget.
Sick and tired of Forcing myself to stop___________
Sick and tired of every single thing around me.
Sick and tired of knowing im all alone and yet telling myself im not.
Sick and tired of telling lies to myself.
Just when i need u de most,
What u shown me is ur heart tat is as cold as ice.
How i wish u were de one here for me.
If ever i could say pls dun go to u again.
But de me now no longer had any rights to say so.
Words left unspoken will never be transfer into ur ears.
Cause to u they no longer had de need to be listen anymore.
Happy birthday to u.
我放弃了所有，包括自己。
因为我再也没有欺骗自己的心得力气，
也没有办法再面对自己的心了。
kisses @ |
10:15 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
..::
Arhx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Super stress at moment.
Dao di how many reports need to be done sia??
Tat bloody lecturer never give clear instruction de leh.
Arhx... sibei sianx.
I hate BIS!!!
Start of my torturing school life.
Haix...
Damn sway this week lah.
Late for class today due to i board on to a spoiled bus again!!!
Twice in a week liao lo.
Sway rite??
first time still ok not late.
But today im fifteen mins late lo.
Lucky is BIS class,
I dun give a damn at all.
Cause i dun like de module seriously.
Is it right to have told him bout it?
Or is it wrong?
But when i see wat he replied as if he really dun bother,
And its like none of his problem,
A feeling of he dun believe in wat i said but i really didnt lie to him.
The fact of feeling this just hurt me still.
Meaning wat one said is really hard.
And yet i have to meant it no matter wat.
Cause tat was a promise.
I guess i know wat my hearts want.
I guess i know wat my mind is thinking too.
But knowing that what you want and think is something far too away for you,
Just simply hurts like hell.
I should learn to fake more smile.
以为自己很坚强，很勇敢，
可是其实全都是假的。
Super stress at moment.
Dao di how many reports need to be done sia??
Tat bloody lecturer never give clear instruction de leh.
Arhx... sibei sianx.
I hate BIS!!!
Start of my torturing school life.
Haix...
Damn sway this week lah.
Late for class today due to i board on to a spoiled bus again!!!
Twice in a week liao lo.
Sway rite??
first time still ok not late.
But today im fifteen mins late lo.
Lucky is BIS class,
I dun give a damn at all.
Cause i dun like de module seriously.
Is it right to have told him bout it?
Or is it wrong?
But when i see wat he replied as if he really dun bother,
And its like none of his problem,
A feeling of he dun believe in wat i said but i really didnt lie to him.
The fact of feeling this just hurt me still.
Meaning wat one said is really hard.
And yet i have to meant it no matter wat.
Cause tat was a promise.
I guess i know wat my hearts want.
I guess i know wat my mind is thinking too.
But knowing that what you want and think is something far too away for you,
Just simply hurts like hell.
I should learn to fake more smile.
以为自己很坚强，很勇敢，
可是其实全都是假的。
kisses @ |
10:05 PM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
..::
Meet Jane and Ray at bukit timah de alamen this afternoon.
Prata day!!!
Ate one cheese prata, Jane had de same prata too.
While Ray ate roti john.
Chatted for quite some time over there.
Thanks Ray for the free ride to school.
And heard that Sky is sick.
Hope he get well soon.
Photos at Janes's blog...
Will go cope one day.
My family is driving me crazy!!!
Feeling the stress and de feeling of helpless.
It isnt a right thing after all.
But what done cannot be undone.
I cant turn back time anymore.
I hate myself so much now.
Prata day!!!
Ate one cheese prata, Jane had de same prata too.
While Ray ate roti john.
Chatted for quite some time over there.
Thanks Ray for the free ride to school.
And heard that Sky is sick.
Hope he get well soon.
Photos at Janes's blog...
Will go cope one day.
My family is driving me crazy!!!
Feeling the stress and de feeling of helpless.
It isnt a right thing after all.
But what done cannot be undone.
I cant turn back time anymore.
I hate myself so much now.
I tot i will feel nth when he said that to me.
But eventually i do still feel something.
But wat it is now is already something very good to me le.
But wat i said today will change wat it is like now bahx.
I cant turn back anymore le.
无法往回走。。。
kisses @ |
10:32 PM
..::
宁静的夜晚，
沉重的心。
迷失了方向，
不知该往哪走下去。
累啊！
沉重的心。
迷失了方向，
不知该往哪走下去。
累啊！
kisses @ |
12:32 AM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
..::
A super long day for me.
Nearly fall asleep during lesson.
Super bored lo.
Especially BIS class.
Learn IT again.
Sianx...
Dunno wat to blog today lah.
Im freaking tired.
And my heart feels so damn hurt for no reason.
Arhx...
想念是会呼吸的痛。
是真是假？
心莫名的感到痛。
Nearly fall asleep during lesson.
Super bored lo.
Especially BIS class.
Learn IT again.
Sianx...
Dunno wat to blog today lah.
Im freaking tired.
And my heart feels so damn hurt for no reason.
Arhx...
想念是会呼吸的痛。
是真是假？
心莫名的感到痛。
kisses @ |
10:18 PM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
..::
Phew...
Manage to survive thru lesson today.
Financial management.
Gotta do accounting again.
Worst cum to worst...
Dun understand what de lecturer is saying due to his tone when he speaks.
And hor...
He teaches super basic accounting today.
Alamak..jiao, jocelyn and me was like almost fell asleep.
Tml got two lesson.
Marketing management and Business infomation system.
Hopefully not a boring module eh.
If not really will faint.
Pray hard ah.
Hope he is doing fine.
And hope he dun push de blame to himself anymore liao.
Jia you eh. Though u might nt see this.
Okay im ending here for today...
Tml will be a long day.
Gambatte neh!!!
Manage to survive thru lesson today.
Financial management.
Gotta do accounting again.
Worst cum to worst...
Dun understand what de lecturer is saying due to his tone when he speaks.
And hor...
He teaches super basic accounting today.
Alamak..jiao, jocelyn and me was like almost fell asleep.
Tml got two lesson.
Marketing management and Business infomation system.
Hopefully not a boring module eh.
If not really will faint.
Pray hard ah.
Hope he is doing fine.
And hope he dun push de blame to himself anymore liao.
Jia you eh. Though u might nt see this.
Okay im ending here for today...
Tml will be a long day.
Gambatte neh!!!
kisses @ |
10:42 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
..::
First day of school is extremly bored de lah.
Orientation is real bored.
Talk bout school rules and regulation etc.
Every department also gt ppl come give speech.
Even de library.
Wth lah...
Den was really super sianx.
Lucky got ppl entertain me.
Muhahaha...
And my class only gt at most 35 ppl i think.
And ppl from my previous class already stand 1/3 of it liao.
Hahax...
Tml lesson 3.30 till 6.30 sia...
Pls end class earlier ah!
I dun wanna squeeze de train or bus lah.
=(
Okay end here le.
Good nite every one.
Orientation is real bored.
Talk bout school rules and regulation etc.
Every department also gt ppl come give speech.
Even de library.
Wth lah...
Den was really super sianx.
Lucky got ppl entertain me.
Muhahaha...
And my class only gt at most 35 ppl i think.
And ppl from my previous class already stand 1/3 of it liao.
Hahax...
Tml lesson 3.30 till 6.30 sia...
Pls end class earlier ah!
I dun wanna squeeze de train or bus lah.
=(
Okay end here le.
Good nite every one.
Will he or will he not?
Does he care??
Confused.
Trying to forget bout it now.
kisses @ |
10:54 PM
..::
Okay gonna go prepare to go school liao.
Kinda sianx eh...
I miss my 2 0857A de friends lah.
Was crapping with CH just now.
A bit lame la...
Haha...
Okay lah... dun crap liao...if not later met jocelyn n jiao late.
BB..off i go...
Kinda sianx eh...
I miss my 2 0857A de friends lah.
Was crapping with CH just now.
A bit lame la...
Haha...
Okay lah... dun crap liao...if not later met jocelyn n jiao late.
BB..off i go...
kisses @ |
10:08 AM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
..::
Arhx....Im bored....
Sianx...
End of my holiday liao.
Really very sianx lo.
Orientation tml!!
Compulsory de sia!!!
Still tot of pon half of it tml leh.
Err... Stupid coordinator say is compulsory.
Damn it lah.
Dun care tml den see how.
Cause heard ppl say de orientation very sianx de.
Dun feel like staying at home.
I hate to stay at home!!!
Sianx...
End of my holiday liao.
Really very sianx lo.
Orientation tml!!
Compulsory de sia!!!
Still tot of pon half of it tml leh.
Err... Stupid coordinator say is compulsory.
Damn it lah.
Dun care tml den see how.
Cause heard ppl say de orientation very sianx de.
Dun feel like staying at home.
I hate to stay at home!!!
kisses @ |
11:00 AM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
..::
Reach home at eight plus.
Im freaking bored.
Mind freaking tired liao le.
Cause keep thinking non stop.
Damn...
Okay...its photo time.
Ur heart are as cold as ice.
Can i believe in wat u said?
Im freaking bored.
Mind freaking tired liao le.
Cause keep thinking non stop.
Damn...
Okay...its photo time.
Ur heart are as cold as ice.
Can i believe in wat u said?
kisses @ |
10:28 PM
..::
Got to work today,
Therefore im going to zzz soon.
Im really a super out of mind gal today.
Lolx...
Guess im crazy liao.
Will load lots of photos up when i get back home from work.
Had fun with my mdis DBMD2 0857A de friends plus sky!
Its a so call outing cum a belated celebration for Stephen kor.
Had fun with my gfs too!( u guys noe who u are lah )
Though atmosphere a bit emo but st had fun blowing bubbles lah.
Hahax...
OVerall really tired today lo.
Went out like since 11 am till 12.30am den come back.
And im out of my mind today.
Haix...
Okay result taken back for last 2 modules.
Surprisingly i didnt fail.
I score an A for BS and a C for FIT.
Phew...lucky did better den previous module.
De 2 D drives me mad lah.
Congratz to jane, u did it le!!!
Received my time table from nathan ngoh today.
I supposed he is our coordinator or wat bah.
I also not sure.
Wat bloody hell is that time table lah.
All afternoon class lo.
WTH...
And its like so mess up.
Damn...
Pathetic days coming up next week.
Dah...Miserable liao...
Ending here...off to zzz.
Therefore im going to zzz soon.
Im really a super out of mind gal today.
Lolx...
Guess im crazy liao.
Will load lots of photos up when i get back home from work.
Had fun with my mdis DBMD2 0857A de friends plus sky!
Its a so call outing cum a belated celebration for Stephen kor.
Had fun with my gfs too!( u guys noe who u are lah )
Though atmosphere a bit emo but st had fun blowing bubbles lah.
Hahax...
OVerall really tired today lo.
Went out like since 11 am till 12.30am den come back.
And im out of my mind today.
Haix...
Okay result taken back for last 2 modules.
Surprisingly i didnt fail.
I score an A for BS and a C for FIT.
Phew...lucky did better den previous module.
De 2 D drives me mad lah.
Congratz to jane, u did it le!!!
Received my time table from nathan ngoh today.
I supposed he is our coordinator or wat bah.
I also not sure.
Wat bloody hell is that time table lah.
All afternoon class lo.
WTH...
And its like so mess up.
Damn...
Pathetic days coming up next week.
Dah...Miserable liao...
Ending here...off to zzz.
I tot it would work out but somehow...
I had a feeling wat i dun wanna it to happened will happened again.
Just wat should i do.
Im confused really confused.
Pls tell me is it true.
Im losing faith in him as days goes by.
Will he be de one?
Wors left unspoken and things left unknow...
How to say them and how can i get to know them?
Damn...and here i am starting to miss him again.
kisses @ |
1:15 AM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
..::
Just fininsh watching 我的师管家.
Super nice japan drama.
Worth spending time watching it.
Haha...De na zhu jiao is shuai de lo.
Arhx...nth to do liao...
No more show to watch le lah.
Anyone got any drama intro to me nt lah?
Hmm...a pretty sad day for me.
My heart seems to be getting weaker and weaker.
Just wats going wrong with me?
Its confusing me every single seconds.
Wat am i bothering it so much?
I guess i need a protective layer for my weak heart.
I think i need to keep my mind off tat person.
Arhx... Im going crazy soon.
Why is this happening on me?
Haix...
I wonder does he care?
Or is it just an ending he is trying to make?
Super nice japan drama.
Worth spending time watching it.
Haha...De na zhu jiao is shuai de lo.
Arhx...nth to do liao...
No more show to watch le lah.
Anyone got any drama intro to me nt lah?
Hmm...a pretty sad day for me.
My heart seems to be getting weaker and weaker.
Just wats going wrong with me?
Its confusing me every single seconds.
Wat am i bothering it so much?
I guess i need a protective layer for my weak heart.
I think i need to keep my mind off tat person.
Arhx... Im going crazy soon.
Why is this happening on me?
Haix...
I wonder does he care?
Or is it just an ending he is trying to make?
kisses @ |
9:53 PM
..::
故事到了告一段落的时候了。
忘记吧！
忘记吧！
kisses @ |
12:20 PM
..:: 18 March 2009::..
A trip to Sony Ericson Service centre with my di di and biao di.
Biao di de hp spoil so bring him there for repairment.
Went over to Boon Lay to fetch him.
We went to JP for lunch.
Didnt get to see him cause i nvr go up.
So sad...
After lunch headed to de service centre.
After all send biao di to tk bus den me and di di tk bus home too.
Boring lo.
Reach home jiu on lappie liao.
Sianx...
I wanted to do it but i dunno whether is it right or wrong.
Wanted to give it a try but im afriad.
Afraid of getting hurt.
Afraid of losing someone again.
Arhx...confused... haix...
Biao di de hp spoil so bring him there for repairment.
Went over to Boon Lay to fetch him.
We went to JP for lunch.
Didnt get to see him cause i nvr go up.
So sad...
After lunch headed to de service centre.
After all send biao di to tk bus den me and di di tk bus home too.
Boring lo.
Reach home jiu on lappie liao.
Sianx...
I wanted to do it but i dunno whether is it right or wrong.
Wanted to give it a try but im afriad.
Afraid of getting hurt.
Afraid of losing someone again.
Arhx...confused... haix...
kisses @ |
12:17 AM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
..::
Is that what i really wanted?
Is that de only choice i could choose?
Im confused.
Feelings and thoughts?
Why am i always choosing thoughts?
And ended always betray my feelings ner?
A promise made by myself.
And i will keep it forever.
This is what i told myself.
Trying hard to meant wat i said.
Though its tough but i had to.
Cause its a promise to someone important,
I dun wish to break it.
Extracted from irene's blog___
“我的感情没有形状”：
“我有三种哭法：
一种是一边哭一边叫，最痛快。
一种是不出声地哭，最伤心。
最后一种是带着微笑哭，最痛苦。”
I once told her that for me is the last way.
But now, its a mixture of 2nd and de last one.
How i wish it could be de first one.
But tat's impossible de.
I know in my heart,
All this is not what i wanted but im left with no other choice.
Is that de only choice i could choose?
Im confused.
Feelings and thoughts?
Why am i always choosing thoughts?
And ended always betray my feelings ner?
A promise made by myself.
And i will keep it forever.
This is what i told myself.
Trying hard to meant wat i said.
Though its tough but i had to.
Cause its a promise to someone important,
I dun wish to break it.
Extracted from irene's blog___
“我的感情没有形状”：
“我有三种哭法：
一种是一边哭一边叫，最痛快。
一种是不出声地哭，最伤心。
最后一种是带着微笑哭，最痛苦。”
I once told her that for me is the last way.
But now, its a mixture of 2nd and de last one.
How i wish it could be de first one.
But tat's impossible de.
I know in my heart,
All this is not what i wanted but im left with no other choice.
kisses @ |
8:56 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
..::
Went to take my cheque this morning,
Back to school to pay school fees.
Im on time eh.
Therefore hope timetable will be send to me quickly ah.
Heehee.
Met up with bei ying after settle school fees thing.
Acc her to zoo to visit auntie su.
Auntie yew lee was there today too.
Chated with them for quite sometimes.
Wah and its de first time i talk so much to james lah.
Haha...but is i disturb him count stock.
Den went to Rf to visit najib.
Den home sweet home liao.
Quite tired, and my finger injured lah.
Is pain de lo.
Took a half an hour nap at 6 plus just now.
But was awaken by my noisy di di.
Overall, its so far so good day bah.
=)
One more day!!!
i tink i miss him.
Back to school to pay school fees.
Im on time eh.
Therefore hope timetable will be send to me quickly ah.
Heehee.
Met up with bei ying after settle school fees thing.
Acc her to zoo to visit auntie su.
Auntie yew lee was there today too.
Chated with them for quite sometimes.
Wah and its de first time i talk so much to james lah.
Haha...but is i disturb him count stock.
Den went to Rf to visit najib.
Den home sweet home liao.
Quite tired, and my finger injured lah.
Is pain de lo.
Took a half an hour nap at 6 plus just now.
But was awaken by my noisy di di.
Overall, its so far so good day bah.
=)
One more day!!!
i tink i miss him.
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10:12 PM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
..::
Happy Birthday to Chen Cong.
Oh ya yesterday was Deric kor birthday, Happy birthday too.
Went over to Chen Cong de house just now.
Her birthday party.
I was invited but was stress lah.
Im de only singaporean there sia.
Hmm... ate dinner there den her few gf left round nine plus.
Den left her, divine and me 3 gals nia.
Together with think her 2 guys house mate, simon-ulu staff, james-divine's friend and luo lei.
De few us just play games and drink over there lo.
Simon damn good lo.
I only kidding nia he really go buy beer come bck sia.
Alamak....so left with no choice i drink lo.
Den play games he dun wan help me drink lah.
Now my face red red de...
Haha...
Drink le, feelings also didnt change much.
Haha...
Sianx...
Hmm...i dunno wat to blog liao le...
Haha...
Just know im not ok at all now.
Oh ya yesterday was Deric kor birthday, Happy birthday too.
Went over to Chen Cong de house just now.
Her birthday party.
I was invited but was stress lah.
Im de only singaporean there sia.
Hmm... ate dinner there den her few gf left round nine plus.
Den left her, divine and me 3 gals nia.
Together with think her 2 guys house mate, simon-ulu staff, james-divine's friend and luo lei.
De few us just play games and drink over there lo.
Simon damn good lo.
I only kidding nia he really go buy beer come bck sia.
Alamak....so left with no choice i drink lo.
Den play games he dun wan help me drink lah.
Now my face red red de...
Haha...
Drink le, feelings also didnt change much.
Haha...
Sianx...
Hmm...i dunno wat to blog liao le...
Haha...
Just know im not ok at all now.
kisses @ |
11:15 PM
..:: 14 March 2009::..
Finally a day tat im working full shift.
But it was a bit pathetic day at de zoo ah.
First time station at amp with luo lei.
Tot i got nth can crap withluo lei lah.
Quite worried when i noe i go in amp with him.
But ended up hai okie lah.
Chatted with him bout china, his country. Hahax...
Sales was quite bad compare to last time i go in amp lah.
Guess because of de economic bahx.
Sales not satisfied still never mind.
Worst come to worst.
Black out at amp lah.
Lucky Najib was there.
If not die,
Some more de rain was heavy sia.
Finally de maintenace came and settle de issue...
So i quickly do my closinf of cashier.
Finish everything le,
Suddenly black out again!!!!!!!!!!!
Wat the right...
Hahax...
Najib buggy us out to main shop after closing amp.
Knock off liao.
Waitied for orly darling to knock off.
Den we cabby to lot one for dinner.
Home sweet Home.
Overall a pretty bad day for me...
But it was a bit pathetic day at de zoo ah.
First time station at amp with luo lei.
Tot i got nth can crap withluo lei lah.
Quite worried when i noe i go in amp with him.
But ended up hai okie lah.
Chatted with him bout china, his country. Hahax...
Sales was quite bad compare to last time i go in amp lah.
Guess because of de economic bahx.
Sales not satisfied still never mind.
Worst come to worst.
Black out at amp lah.
Lucky Najib was there.
If not die,
Some more de rain was heavy sia.
Finally de maintenace came and settle de issue...
So i quickly do my closinf of cashier.
Finish everything le,
Suddenly black out again!!!!!!!!!!!
Wat the right...
Hahax...
Najib buggy us out to main shop after closing amp.
Knock off liao.
Waitied for orly darling to knock off.
Den we cabby to lot one for dinner.
Home sweet Home.
Overall a pretty bad day for me...
kisses @ |
10:05 AM
Friday, March 13, 2009
..::
Lunch at Jurong Point today with my 2 gfs, Vicki and Sharene.
Long time no see...
Had fun with them today eh.
And i saw my so call eye candy today.
Dah...he is really handsome lah.
Both my gfs say so too.
Long time no see...
Had fun with them today eh.
And i saw my so call eye candy today.
Dah...he is really handsome lah.
Both my gfs say so too.
Tot he wont recognise me but he do ah.
So shock bout that.
But maybe is because i weaar de jacket i took photo with few days ago bahx.
Tats why he noe is me bahx.
Hahax...
Anyway had a fun day today..
Hope to have another outing tgt with them again.
And this time round with Irene, Ky they all present too eh.
Wahhaha...
Okie ending here le.
Heard stories of my two gfs today.
Hopefully things goes well for u two...
Heehee... =)
kisses @ |
9:40 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
..::
Just talk to KY online just now.
Glad that she is doing fine on her first day of work eh.
Got to talk to grace too.
Long time never talk to her liao.
Chat bout some stuff and all.
Chat a little bit with Irene too.
But ok...some how her mood not good...
And i dunno why cause she dun want tell me.
I will not ask anything until she willing to tell me herself.
And Irene Soh, Its alright...no need say sorry de.
KY say humans are fragile.
Human's mind, human's heart are fragile.
I do agree to it.
Glad that she is doing fine on her first day of work eh.
Got to talk to grace too.
Long time never talk to her liao.
Chat bout some stuff and all.
Chat a little bit with Irene too.
But ok...some how her mood not good...
And i dunno why cause she dun want tell me.
I will not ask anything until she willing to tell me herself.
And Irene Soh, Its alright...no need say sorry de.
KY say humans are fragile.
Human's mind, human's heart are fragile.
I do agree to it.
Freaking sad today huh...
Parents scolding di di for coming home late.
Now still haven reach home.
Di di, u getting more and more rebel liao lo...
Haix... So i at home have to hear them nag, hear them scold,
See them throw things, throw temper,
Say call him dun come back le lah and bla bla bla more.
Suffocating ah...
Seriously screw lo...
Friday liao...
Kor reaching singapore on sat morning.
But i sat work amp, opening shift.
Therefore wont get to see him untill night time.
I miss my kor lah.
Heehee...and opps have to replace back soemthing before he comes back.
If not he might scold me...
Tml must put back.
And with my kor back home,
Guess mood at home should be better bahx.
Btw congratx to my di di.
He pass all his subjects this time round.
Guess should be able to pass n level and proceed to o level bahx.
Jia you di di.
U prove that u can do it de liao.
But doesnt mean ur wings can fly as u wish le hor..
Dun always play around.
Stay home more lah.. Den jiu wont get scolding liao.
Okay ending here.
To de person who tagged my blog without even bother to leave ur name down.
Or afriad to leave ur name down.
I dun care who u are.
Why u scold me etc.
U dun deserve to scold me.
Bloody hell...
Since u dare to scold ppl den dare to leave ur name too.
Dun play around like a kid.
Wan scold me give me a super good reason first.
Bloody hell, who u think u are?
Damn...
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11:57 PM
..::
Piss off sia....
Dare to scold ppl dun dare to leave ur name down.
Bloody hell....
WTF lo...
Dare to scold ppl dun dare to leave ur name down.
Bloody hell....
WTF lo...
kisses @ |
12:37 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
..::
sStaring at the dark sky.
Wondering where is him,
What is he doing right now.
Searching for his presence that was once left over by him.
Memories of him flipping through my mind,
As if im flipping a photo album.
Everything looks so real but yet so fake.
He seem so near but yet also seem so far away from me.
Was it all just a dream?
Or was it reality?
I no longer can differentiate.
He is no longer here and my heart seems to have left with him.
And it will never come back.
May god bless him and bring him back safely from india.
And hope tat his sir will stop scolding him.
Moon and sun will never meet each other and be together de.
Maybe that's de distance tat keep u away from me bahx.
Wondering where is him,
What is he doing right now.
Searching for his presence that was once left over by him.
Memories of him flipping through my mind,
As if im flipping a photo album.
Everything looks so real but yet so fake.
He seem so near but yet also seem so far away from me.
Was it all just a dream?
Or was it reality?
I no longer can differentiate.
He is no longer here and my heart seems to have left with him.
And it will never come back.
May god bless him and bring him back safely from india.
And hope tat his sir will stop scolding him.
Moon and sun will never meet each other and be together de.
Maybe that's de distance tat keep u away from me bahx.
kisses @ |
11:11 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
..:: Arhx..::..
Damn...im really crushed.
Arhx...
Wat should i do eh...
Seriously im lost.
Is any there one to bring me back?
Haix...
Arhx...
Wat should i do eh...
Seriously im lost.
Is any there one to bring me back?
Haix...
kisses @ |
7:58 PM
Monday, March 9, 2009
..:: Regret::..
Seriously, Im regretting.
Regret over a lot of things.
But wat done cannot be undone.
Wat gone will never come back.
Wat said cannot be taken back.
Guess i need to just get use over all those regret.
Regret over a lot of things.
But wat done cannot be undone.
Wat gone will never come back.
Wat said cannot be taken back.
Guess i need to just get use over all those regret.
People comes and goes.
Walk in and out our life as they wish.
It cannot be stop.
Unless a miracle do happened.
放了爱
为了爱
这不是我
该怎麼生活
放了爱
为了爱
这不是我
想要的生活
放了爱
会明白有种拥有
叫作放手
kisses @ |
10:46 PM
Sunday, March 8, 2009
..::
Oh ya...Forgotten to blog bout chalet thing eh.
It was fun though there's some conflicts over the attendance and money wise.
But overall its fun lah.
Drank a lot over that 2 days.
Wanted to get drunk de.
But in de end never leh.
But i really drank a lot lo.
Dunno why just never drunk leh.
Still can tahan dun sleep for 2 days some more.
Arhx... I want go drink again lah.
Who want accompany me?
Hahax...
Hmm...sort of did enjoy over there bahx.
Though mood not very good.
Haix...but still got enjoy lah.
Damn..this week im going to slack at home lo.
WTF lah...
Shit sia... Nth better to do lo.
I start to miss my kor kor liao lah.
Kor faster come back lah.
Dunno he will buy thing from there give us not hor?
Think he wont lah...
He so forgetful de.
Hahax...
Dun get too tanned come back jiu can liao.
Later i dun recognise him.
Den he must have master indian dance over there liao.
Muhahahax...
Opps...laugh at him here.
Ai ya...he wont see it de.
Hahax...
Nth to blog liao...
So stop here le.
Bye everyone.
It was fun though there's some conflicts over the attendance and money wise.
But overall its fun lah.
Drank a lot over that 2 days.
Wanted to get drunk de.
But in de end never leh.
But i really drank a lot lo.
Dunno why just never drunk leh.
Still can tahan dun sleep for 2 days some more.
Arhx... I want go drink again lah.
Who want accompany me?
Hahax...
Hmm...sort of did enjoy over there bahx.
Though mood not very good.
Haix...but still got enjoy lah.
Damn..this week im going to slack at home lo.
WTF lah...
Shit sia... Nth better to do lo.
I start to miss my kor kor liao lah.
Kor faster come back lah.
Dunno he will buy thing from there give us not hor?
Think he wont lah...
He so forgetful de.
Hahax...
Dun get too tanned come back jiu can liao.
Later i dun recognise him.
Den he must have master indian dance over there liao.
Muhahahax...
Opps...laugh at him here.
Ai ya...he wont see it de.
Hahax...
Nth to blog liao...
So stop here le.
Bye everyone.
kisses @ |
11:32 PM
..::
Meeting Irene at 5 later.
Going lot one to buy somethings.
After tat at night going to my aunt house.
I need to keep myself busy.
But yet im super duper free this month.
Haix...
Going lot one to buy somethings.
After tat at night going to my aunt house.
I need to keep myself busy.
But yet im super duper free this month.
Haix...
Must find things give myself do.
Must find drama give myself watch.
Must find anime give myself watch too.
Keep myself busy.
So i wont think of him anymore.
Damn...
Okay...gonna go shower le.
If not later late.
Hahaahax...
Sayonara everyone.
Yeapx...Change my blogskin le.
Kind of quite like this blogskin lah.
Dun understand why guys always like to ignore ppls msg.
Haix...
Forget it.
Da da da...
kisses @ |
4:22 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009
..::
是什么在牵动着我的心？
是什么在拉折着我的心？
是什么让我迷失了方向？
是什么让我失去了自我？
是什么让我的心破碎了？
学不会放开，
学不会离开，
学不会面对自己的心，
总是对自己撒谎，
我的心在那里？
你留下的空缺要怎么填补？
要怎么忘记所有的一切呢？
听见自己的心在呐喊，
感觉到自己的心在痛。
可是我又能做什么呢？
是什么在拉折着我的心？
是什么让我迷失了方向？
是什么让我失去了自我？
是什么让我的心破碎了？
学不会放开，
学不会离开，
学不会面对自己的心，
总是对自己撒谎，
我的心在那里？
你留下的空缺要怎么填补？
要怎么忘记所有的一切呢？
听见自己的心在呐喊，
感觉到自己的心在痛。
可是我又能做什么呢？
kisses @ |
11:03 PM
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
..:: Just like a drama.::..
Going for chalet tml!
Hope dun rain on de 4th ah.
Pray pray pray.
Kor at india le.
Hope my kor faster come back.
Come back safely.
Hahax...dun turn dark again.
If not i cant recognise him.
Opps...
It was really like a drama.
Unexpected.
But god heard at least one of my wishes.
Though for only less den few seconds.
Im gonna miss him a lot.
Will i ever get back de memories and let them continue?
Screw up life.
All i ever wanted was...
Why do things always go the different way from wat we wanted?
Cause we let it ended up in tat way.
Why must it be that someone must be hurt in order to end something?
Feelings can be build up as long as willing to try.
Why do people like to hurt others?
Does love really meant to have someone being hurt, someone to sacrifice?
Complicated. Entangled. Screwed up. Mystery. Messed up.
Its just like a drama.
If letting go and it comes back to u, means it will be urs.
So will he? Will he comes back to me?
Finding an answer...to all this.
Complicated life of mine.
Getting sick and tired.
Hope dun rain on de 4th ah.
Pray pray pray.
Kor at india le.
Hope my kor faster come back.
Come back safely.
Hahax...dun turn dark again.
If not i cant recognise him.
Opps...
It was really like a drama.
Unexpected.
But god heard at least one of my wishes.
Though for only less den few seconds.
Im gonna miss him a lot.
Will i ever get back de memories and let them continue?
Screw up life.
All i ever wanted was...
Why do things always go the different way from wat we wanted?
Cause we let it ended up in tat way.
Why must it be that someone must be hurt in order to end something?
Feelings can be build up as long as willing to try.
Why do people like to hurt others?
Does love really meant to have someone being hurt, someone to sacrifice?
Complicated. Entangled. Screwed up. Mystery. Messed up.
Its just like a drama.
If letting go and it comes back to u, means it will be urs.
So will he? Will he comes back to me?
Finding an answer...to all this.
Complicated life of mine.
Getting sick and tired.
kisses @ |
12:11 AM