What am i gonna do to make myself stop? I dun mean to keep seeing it but i just cant help. I keep having this urge to see. Wth am i doing?! When one keeps online yet no response, its obvious enough already. Yet why cant i stop?

Have been thinking why would he even talk to me in de first place? After dissappearing for more den a year den now suddenly pops up from no where again. It makes me keep thinking that de same thing will happen again. I know n im starting to be afraid but yet im still dumb enough to drop into it. Really is dig hole jump in myself.

I really hate it now. I keep wanting to look at it. Yet looking at it makes me sad every single time. The timing i see, de status i see everything hurts. Dumb n stupid me, 永远都喜欢错的人！

Okay, im really tired already. Hope i wont go even deeper. Sigh....